the first time i saw aman was in december 1995. minggu orientasi di STMFP. masa tu my group combined dgn his group.

the last time we met was yesterday. i was in KL that weekend.

and we will meet again insya Allah this Friday. balik kampung.

i'll be on leave..one week tau :)

tired!
really am..


need to add another item:

• everyday solat hajat

yup let's pray let's pray
not only for me
but for all

insya Allah.

three things that i need to do today (10.12.09):

• call JPN Kota Bharu - mana cek saye?
• call the beauty centre - how's pelamin n baju?
• update the wedding items - how much (much kah?) work have been done

a married-friend told me; once u have decided on an item, just move on to next one. don't look back and never regret. just move on.

perhaps.

nervous come & go & come

i dont think that im going to post any about the preps here at first. nothing much. but i got the chance today with less work for now.

why not posting. at least i share. at least i share with myself now and perhaps it will be shared with my-future-self later. and him. at least.

well nothing much actually. i have just done with the kursus kahwin yesterday (5 & 6 dec) and waiting for the sijil to be collected this friday. aman did attend the same kursus as well, here at pekan. thanks dear :)

so we are going to move to the next plan, card design this weekend. hope to find the best we can afford by this saturday and proceed with the tempahan. insya Allah. and oh it's year end sale and i'm going to KL this weekend so maybe we can do some shopping for hantaran. insya Allah.

i don't know, just pray that everything will go well. good. seems like i have many things in mind and most of them are all about discussions and follow-up.

shuuhhh shuuhhhh nervous. huhu.

"bila rindu terkenang mu sayang
terasa sayu syahdunya jiwaku bila malam makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang.."



sad last night..

happy birthday to me!!

late post i know..:) nway the photos were taken during my cousin wedding reception on 31st Oct 2009 nite..just a few minutes before me the birthday girl turned 26 :) aman looked ngntuk + boring..hehe :)

the reception was held at Dewan Perdana Felda KL and Agong went for the wedding as well..and me the bridesmaid got the chance to see him live at close quarters during the tepung tawar..hehe..sekadar pengalaman :) Alhamdulillah..the wedding went well..sooo lovely..and i wish both bride and groom a happy-ever-after..insya Allah..

and i guess..i really need to work on my wedding preps..oh pening now i know..with so heavy workloads at the office..i just can't wait to end this semester..3 weeks more to lessen the burden..hmm..not a burden actually..it's a responsibility tapi sgt byk..huhu..and the wedding..almost 3 months to go..chaiyukk!!

i remember when i had to prepare for my engagement..i was still at hometown at that moment with my family..thanks to my mom and sisters for helping me with the preps..i dreamt of a simple engagement day..with gold-peach theme..but after further discussions and helps from family..we came out with what-we-have-came-out-with..Alhamdulillah..and it was meaningful..

yellow?yellow is never a favourite colour but i wore yellow on the day..haha..i decided to sewa saja the baju..why yellow eh? i didn't know really..i just walked into the first boutique and fell in love when i first saw the dress in front of the main door..that easy..Alhamdulillah..but i found that it was not so comfortable to bersila for sarung cincin event so i agreed with my aunty and mom's suggestion to have seat or chair for sarung cincin..kerusi tu semua memang sedia ada kat rumah..so we just asked for some help from the deco-man to do the dais (if i can call that)..

it was a simple yet meaningful engagement..Alhamdulillah..things went much easier than i first thought..Alhamdulillah..

i pray that the wedding will go well also..insya Allah..still..i dream of a simple one..tak perlu grand..tak perlu glamorous..but a meaningful one..with lovely and beautiful people around..insya Allah..

please pray for me..i still got too many things to be done..pray for me ya..



and..we plan to wear lilac/purple on the day of february..insya Allah..

Ya Allah..permudahkanlah..

november is coming!

i cried then i smiled

yesterday was stressful
i walked out of the class crying
i dont want to feel stupid
i just let out the frustration

and i then smiled

i knew the challenge since ever
to teach strange people from various backgrounds
and they are teenagers
but this is what i have chosen
and i have to keep going

i was tired
i went to bed early last night
and i woke up this happy wednesday
just to find that i have to walk that path i've chosen again
i smiled

i dont have to give up
i just have to realize the situation
i am tired because i am not good enough
i need to work harder
and pray for strength throughout the journey
insya Allah

and you
i wish you all the best too


:)

interested?

salam ramadhan
&
salam aidilfitri
maaf zahir dan batin

(sekadar berkongsi. sumber tak diketahui)

Ada ketikanya anda perlu bersendirian::

::Pabila mengatakan "maaf", tenunglah matanya.

Apabila kamu berkata "aku cinta padamu", maka tunaikanlah::

::Apabila seseorang bertanyakan satu soalan yang tidak anda gemari, lontarkanlah senyuman dan bertanyalah padanya, "kenapa anda ingin tahu? "

Tersenyumlah ketika menjawab telefon. Pemanggil akan melihatnya daripada suara yang mereka dengar::

:::Cintailah seseorang dengan sepenuh hati dan penuh kasih sayang. Sungguhpun anda akan berasa seolah-olah diri anda terseksa, tapi percayalah itulah satu-satunya untuk melengkapkan kehidupan ini(",).

hi semua,

kadang2 rase cepatnye masa berlalu..kan..

rabu 12 aug saya mula keje balik selepas seminggu cuti H1N1..malam tu jugak la handphone saya rosak..menangis sakan saya malam tu..perasaan itu..Tuhan saja yg tahu..saya harap akan dapat balik handphone tu secepat mungkin..rindu betul..

minggu tu..semua staf ofis sibuk dgn persiapan konvo..maklumlah..dah cuti seminggu..semua kerja tertangguh..tapi Alhamdulillah..Sabtu 15 aug hari tu majlis berjalan lancar..satu pengalaman berharga buat saya..melihat pelajar naik ke pentas menerima habuan masing-masing selepas semusim di IKM..saya bangga..saya sebak..saya syukur..

hujung minggu baru ni jgk..sabtu di petang hari..aman datang..yeay happy! we went for window shopping tapi gagal ketemu yg dihajati di hati..huhu..tak pelah..mungkin lain kali..we then decided to mamam satay for dinner..sekali-sekala makan and borak sama-sama..

hari seterusnya..we both tgk citer Aliens In The Attic..haha..kelakar..if you are in need of laugh..you may try watch this..i recommend you :)

oh itu semua hujung minggu lepas..cepatnye masa berlalu..hidup..kadang2 kita gembira..kadang2 kita hanya mampu berdoa memujuk hati..tapi saya tetap hargai dan ingati hari2 gembira dalam hidup saya..

sukar nk gambarkan perasaan saya ketika ini..saya dah tak jumpa perkataan utk menggambarkannya..perkataan lain di sebalik gembira..entah lah..pening..pening :) sudahnya..setakat inilah entri untuk kali ni..

hanya memerhati..belajar..dan berdoa..agar semua kan baik-baik saja..

(^_^)

Saya cintakan awak ialah
Saya mempunyai perasaan terhadap awak
Sayang, rindu, bahagia
Semua itu perasaan saya terhadap awak
Namun saya sedar
Saya tak boleh lupa
Bahawa cemburu, marah, sakit hati, sedih
Itu semua juga perasaan
Bila saya mempunyai perasaan terhadap awak,
Tak dapat tidak, perasaan itu mungkin terselit juga
Tentulah ada tawa dan tangis
Mungkin ini dimaksudkan dengan kata-kata Inggeris bahawa;
‘I love you so much, and it hurts’
Jadi saya tak mahu putus asa
Itu semua asam garam apabila saya ada perasaan terhadap awak
Sekurang-kurangnya saya tahu
Cinta juga ialah tentang mengawal perasaan
Mengawal rasa sayang
Mengawal rasa sakit
Agar seimbang
Agar waras
Demi satu perjalanan hidup.

jane tag adani

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah:
-

2. Saya sedang mendengar:
OST all about eve

3. Mungkin saya patut:
ke klinik and periksa adakah saya batuk biase2 je

4. Saya suka:
org yang tag saye nih :)

5. Sahabat-sahabat baik saya:
tengah pakai mask kat ofis skang..

6. Saya tak faham:
sikap remaja skarang..to be specific..my students la..i'm still learning..

7. Saya kehilangan:
abah in person..

8. Ramai yang berkata:
tapi tak ramai yang jujur..

9. Makna nama saya:
saya harap ia benar2 bermakna..

10. Cinta itu adalah:
bila saya bgn tidur dan teringat dia..haha..

11. Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang:
menyayangi saya..

12. Saya akan cuba:
memahami soalan no. 6..

13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud
sampai matikah?

14. Telefon bimbit saya:
hadiah harijadi tahun lepas..

15. Bila saya terjaga dari tidur:
saya teringat seseorg..

16. Saya paling meluat apabila:
budak2 menyampuk..

17. Pesta/Parti adalah:
melaghakan..

18. Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah:
anak kucing kot..

19. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah:
kanak-kanak..

20. Hari ini:
tmpat saya kerja diisytiharkan cuti sminggu..

21. Malam ini saya akan:
naik bas ke kelantan..

22. Esok pula saya akan:
habiskan masa di rumah..

23. Saya betul-betul inginkan:
cek saya tahun lepas tapi xdapat2 lagi..bernilai rm****..huhu..

24. Ketika saya lihat wajah saya di hadapan cermin pagi ini:
mm..jerawat dah kurang..

25. Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan:
Pusat membeli belah..

26. Makanan Barat atau Jepun:
Barat..

27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap:
Depends..

28. Makanan segera adalah:
best bile lapar..wat alas perut kat ofis..

29. Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
tolong la..

30. Siapa yang anda mahu tag?
saya rasa saya xpenah tag sape2 sblm ni secara khusus..this time..saya nk tag cik anggerek..

tajuk dah tak penting

semalam saya rasa sangat susah hati. tiba-tiba terasa susah untuk pulang ke kampung halaman; perlu ke kuantan untuk menaiki bas, dan soal siapa boleh menjemput saya di terminal kuantan setiba dari kampung nanti. saya bukan lah terlalu manja. cuma tidak yakin dengan perkhidmatan teksi di malam hari. saya kan perempuan. seorang diri pula.

berhempas pulas saya berfikir. sambil otak masih mampu ligat memikirkan bahan untuk membuat soalan peperiksaan. saya berhenti rehat seketika dan menelefon tunang tersayang. kemudian saya sambung fikir lagi, sambil tangan terus menekan huruf-huruf di laptop menaip tugasan yang perlu disiapkan. alhamdulillah, masih boleh memikirkan dua benda dalam satu masa. fikir dan fikir maka akhirnya saya nampak sinar lampu di sebalik pintu bilik teman serumah.

ya, beliau akan pulang ke kemaman hujung minggu nanti. apa kata kalau saya memohon jasa baik beliau. maka muncul satu idea yang akhirnya mengusir jauh keruh di wajah saya. sambil control senyum, saya meluahkan apa yang tersarang dalam fikiran saya sepanjang malam. alangkah baiknya hati beliau (ingin saya dedahkan di sini nama beliau walaupun bukan penuh, iaitu fiza). beliau bersetuju untuk menunggu saya di kemaman dan menumpangkan saya balik ke pekan. dengan lain perkataan, kami akan balik ke pekan dari kemaman sama-sama. hehe. saya lepaskan senyuman yang dicontrol tadi. lega. syukur.

saya nak balik kampung sangat2. walaupun sekadar cuti hujung minggu sabtu dan ahad. doakan saya selamat, ya.


*jane, entri pertama bulan 8 nanti saya siapkan tag kamu, ya ;p

being kid

went to kfc and bought myself a happy meal and this is what i got :) chicky jigsaw puzzle :) 100 pieces maaa..so i woke up sunday morning..made myself a cup of ovaltine with nestum cereal and..

bermula lah..took out sume puzzles..mase ni dh excited cket2 sbb byk pieces..and my style..kalu nk settle puzzle..suke abiskan susun yg tepi..camni haa..

bila dh camni..dapat figure besar rupenya..lagi la excited..dan begitu mengasyikkan..i tell you..

non-stop and non-stop..referring to the pics..

tadaaa..siap :) comey comey..

and happy :) sekali-sekala bring myself into this kind of moment..best gak..mengasyikkan..



anyway, remember my previous entry when i posted about this lovely vince of mine? hehe..i already got myself a new one..:)

cakk..:)same patern..same brand but at lower price and different colour..this time..kelabuuuu!!

meh nk close-up :)

actually xplan to buy the same one..tp bkn senang nk cari yg selesa..at last nmpak this one..this colour..i smiled and decided to have it mine..at least i'm happy with it now..and always for sure :)

it's not about yes or no

it's been a long time but i still remember what i 've read..:

"..you don't have to understand women..you just have to love them.."



and this morning, i found another quote saying the same thing in different way..:

"to be happy with a man you must understand him a lot
and love him a little,
to be happy with a woman you must love her a lot
and try not to understand her at all.."

e-mail!!

WAYS TO TURN DOWN UNWANTED MEN !!!!

HE : Can I buy you a drink?
SHE : Actually I'd rather have the money..

HE : I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face like yours.
SHE : I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face like yours.

HE : Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice?
SHE : Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.

HE : How did you get to be so beautiful?
SHE : I must've been given your share..

HE : Will you go out with me this Saturday?
SHE : Sorry. I'm having a headache this weekend.

HE : Your face must turn a few heads.
SHE : And your face must turn a few stomachs.

HE : Go on ,don't be shy. Ask me out.
SHE : Okay, get out.

HE : I think I could make you very happy.
SHE : Why? Are you leaving?

HE : What would you say if I asked you to marry me?
SHE : Nothing. I can't talk and laugh at the same time.

HE : Can I have your name?
SHE : Why? Don't you already have one?

HE : Shall we go see a movie?
SHE : I've already seen it.

HE : Where have you been all my life?
SHE : Hiding from you.

HE : Haven't I seen you some place before?
SHE : Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.

HE : Is this seat empty?
SHE : Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

HE : So, what do you do for a living?
SHE : I'm a female impersonator.

HE : Hey baby, what's your sign?
SHE : Do not enter.

HE : Your body is like a temple.
SHE : Sorry, there are no services today.

HE : If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
SHE : If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.

FORWARD TO WOMEN IN NEED OF SOME LAUGHS
(and men who may appreciate good humor)



aman sent this a few days ago.
:)

sadness is beautiful

ever heard that? nope? hehe now i'm letting you. perhaps the beautiful part is when you always pray to GOD for strength and blessing. yup perhaps perhaps. and the toughest part is to deal with smile. if you still manage to get a smile on your own whenever you feel sad, that would be considered as 'the most beautiful' smile. ouch!

smile smile smile. no matter what. win your own smile regardless of what you feel (as hard as you can, there's always limitation to everything i know). me? i was quite upset last night but Alhamdulillah i could still fight for a smile to please a friend. Alhamdulillah, and i'm truly thankful that i then receive a good happy news today. my sis-in-law gave birth to her 4-kilos baby boy this morning :) it's on 2nd July 2009. oh i can't wait to see the baby. really can't wait. i am going to give him the baby socks, and a kiss :)

i feel good today. i am smiling right now, you see? :) i cherish every moment i smile. and it's good to find that i'm not only smile to happiness, but i am sometimes able to smile to sadness.

so, happy thursday everyone. and oh, it's kly's birthday!

1, 2, 3

1) jam tangan BUM kaler pink ni hadiah harijadi masa tahun..2003 kalo tak silap..penah tukar bateri sekali..pakai jam ni sampai rosak talinya..mula2 nak beli jam baru..survey dan survey..dan almost nk beli jam baru..tetiba rase sayang sgt2 kat jam ni..jadi saye amik keputusan tukar tali jam saja..stick ngn kaler pink..dan pakai la sampai hari ni..i love i love :)

2) vincci kaler brown size 6..sangat suka sandle ni sbb sangat comfortable..sangat susah nk jumpe sandle or kasut yg sangat affordable tapi sesuai dan selesa dan bleh pakai lama..ingat lagi..saye baru beli sandle putih tapi tak sampai satu hari pakai..kaki dah melecet..masa jalan2 terus amik keputusan nk beli sandle baru..and yeay dapat sandle ni..terus ku tinggalkan sandle putih yg melecetkan itu dekat satu tempat dlm shopping mall tersebut..hehe..lame jgk pakai sandle ni..my best one..tapi skrg dah haus and seems like i need to find a new one..and honestly..i feel sad..peliknye :(

3) another brown vincci..ye lagi2 brown..handbag kesayanganku pun brown..yeay yg ni sangat best pakai..sangat sayang this one jugak..santai ke mana saja kdg2 dlm ofis pun..ni beli tengah thn 2007 kalo xsilap (mmg xsilap kot..mase kat kolej negeri pkai ni) tapi tetap jadi pilihanku sampai hari ni..dah rosak die punye tapak..tapi still nk pakai jgk..suke sangat2 :)






saye bukan shopaholic..kalo shopping pun..susah nk jumpe yg saye betul bkenan dan selesa..tapi bile dah jumpe..saye akan selalu pakai and sayang sangat..xkisah org cakap apepun..like those..i love them much :)

a great cure of this boredom

i don't know why that i'm still into these photos to be uploaded here. this is not an update i know. but i realize that each time i take a look at this moment in my life, i'm thankful that i was given such opportunity that i can always remember.

"hadapi dengan senyuman

semua yang terjadi biar terjadi
hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
semua kan baik-baik saja

bila ketetapan tuhan
sudah ditetapkan tetaplah sudah
tak ada yang biasa merubah
dan takkan bisa berubah

relakanlah saja ini
bahwa semua yang terbaik
terbaik untuk kita semua
menyerahlah untuk menang"

by Tn Hj Hamichan b. Zain

IKM TSYA 09

i wish i am an eat lover

glad that i have finally found my favorite food and place. Those are simple and i have just noticed them recently here at pekan:

1. nasi lemak ayam at sawit & IKM cafe (i soo rarely eat nasi lemak before but here, nasi lemak is my top choice)
   
2. roti canai at pantai selamat food court (kuah pun licin, kuah dal only)
   
3. mee sup at kedai liplap (the food is soooo gorgeous and memenuhi selera)
   

oh i could only list down three for now but i hope for more to come.

yes, i wish i was i wish i am a food lover.
that kind who can just eat and eat and put on.
that kind who eat because the food is real yummy.
that kind with great appetite.

i hope i am that kind.

baby baby

see my brother..very2 excited nk dapat baby..first baby :) insya Allah mid June nnt..ni masa balik kg cuti 1 mei hari tu..kelakar tgk die prektis pakaikan baju baby..and his wife tersengih je..let's pray for them..mudah-mudahan my sis-in-law selamat melahirkan nanti..insya Allah..so can't wait to hold the baby..and me, i always wanted to buy the baby socks..tak tau nape saangat geram tgk kecomelan stokin itu..so nanti i'll get one or maybe 2 or 3 for my new anak sedara, and one for me to keep..hehe :)

elyna & fikri

i was so so touched when the bride texted me asking my current address so that she could send me the invitation. thank you so much lyn. it was really a great pleasure to be there at your wedding and honestly, i've always wanted to be there since the day i received the lovely card. my pleasure :) and Alhamdulillah, Tuhan memudahkan ani & jeme ke sana; kuantan-kl 3jamstgh je, my mom n aunty were both in kl.

i mean it. i so admire the wedding. simplicity in elegance; the gold theme, the music, the self-made pelamin, and mostly the warmest welcome by the family made the wedding so ______.

and another best part is to get together again with some farisians esp lyn herself whom i last met 9 years back when collecting the SPM result.

so i have no more to say here. let's just recall the moments.

to lyn and leput, i wish you both a happy-ever-after, to be blessed with wonderful family and blissful life, insyaallah.

*hugs

fry-day

i felt the same last friday 17 apr 09.

i was just soo lazy to go to my morning n afternoon classes.
i just could not focus.
the first 2hours in the morning seem sooo long.
and i ended up my 2hours class in the evening just chatting with my students
after 30mins of discussion on our lesson of the day.
i just could not concentrate.
the heart n mind n soul left me alone.
i only managed to get them back on the next day in kl.
beautiful last weekend yeay!

this friday 24 apr 09.

the same feeling again.
mom is still in kl so i plan to spend my weekend there again.
ohh i sooo can't wait for tomorrow.
to see aman.
to see mom.
to see lovely sister.
to see friends.
oh i'm going to attend a wedding as well!
and again,
the heart n mind n soul have always made their first move leaving me alone here.
i struggle hard to stay focus and attend my classes.
i planned a discussion for my morning class and prepared some riddles to help time passes quick.
i planned a task and presentation for my next class so that the students and i do the talking equally for each hour.
done!
i packed my things when it was 10mins to 5 and got ready to drive home at 5 sharp :)
i just can't wait to end today.
i went shopping on my way back and only arrived home at 8pm.
oh i just can't wait to end today.

i think the best way is to go to bed earlier.
so that i don't have to wait any minutes until tomorrow comes.

tomorrow, come quick!
and please be nice and give me another happy weekend.

yawn~

i know i know. dah lama orang bercerita pasal jangan tegur. hehe. went to kl last weekend and i watched this on sunday. smalam la tu. yeay that i insisted aman to watch this. tapi kan, nape saya cam xperasan scene di atas? nampak sangat la tgk sambil tutup mata kan. memang citer ni banyak terkejut2 tapi konsepnye sama je. h*ntu nk sampaikan sesuatu mesej kpd org yg dipilih untuk disetelkan. solute lah nadia mustapha. i admire her character the most.

kdg2, masa awal citer, rasa kelakar jgk. bkn citer ni yg klakar. tapi reaksi audience skalian. so dalam cinema hari tu, gelak-jerit-gelak-jerit-gelak-jerit-tutup mata sampai la julia ziegler dh bertukar jadi alien at almost end. time tu dah semangat nk tgk betul2 tanpa tutup mata.

tapi saya tak paham, apa kena-mengena ngan tajuk jgn tegur? tegurankah yg mencetus? bukan start ngan julia accident ke?

oklah, get back to work. dah xngantuk. 20 mins before 5 yeay!

lady's problem, maybe

my simple beautiful life..


read her previous entry '...only dead fish swim with the stream' over again. she's right. problem is a part of life. i once wondered if there's anyone living this beautiful world without problem and i envy those kind. but now i start to believe that anybody may have their own problem. small one, or big one. take a long time, or a short time. can be solved, or no way out. and above all, the most important is to know what the problem exactly is and find the way to get out of that. is it easy, human?

well, haha. i feel like crying now, and for the past few days actually. AND I DON'T KNOW IF I ACTUALLY HAVE A PROBLEM..kuangkuangkuang..well, maybe yes that i have problems. perhaps and hopefully small one :)

anyway, i sometimes question myself why people esp ladies tend to try solving or lessening the burden by doing something irrelevant. example? ok here:

Problem? torn between two,

• get a new car or;
  
• continue saving for a big event

Solution?

• go for a haircut

So irrelevant kan?


But yes, maybe it is just a small part of the problem solving; to reduce stress and console the mind to think right again.

think first?

oh i'm so so not in the mood. a supposed-to-be good start of the day has been spoilt by someone whom i closely work with.

i tried to concentrate on my work but updating the marks didn't really help. what else to do?

• i just need to talk to someone, so i texted aman.
  
• i surf and i found that poster that led me to a searching of anger management.
• now i'm reading a few tips.
  

so some of the Anger Management Tips:

• Take a "time out." Although it may seem cliche, counting to 10 before reacting, or leaving the situation altogether, really can defuse your temper. (not that easy..)
  

• Do something physically exerting. Physical activity can provide an outlet for your emotions, especially if you're about to erupt. Go for a brisk walk or a run, swim, lift weights or shoot baskets. (kalu kat ofis? have to do something MENTALLY exerting kah? ok i'm now surfing n blogging)
  

• Find ways to calm and soothe yourself. Practice deep-breathing exercises, visualize a relaxing scene, or repeat a calming word or phrase to yourself, such as "take it easy." You can also listen to music, paint, journal or do yoga. (i always do this..tapi ade limit jugak kan..kalu dah beyond the limit?)
  

• Once you're calm, express your anger as soon as possible so that you aren't left stewing. If you simply can't express your anger in a controlled manner to the person who angered you, try talking to a family member, friend, counselor or another trusted person. (saya setuju..xleh pendam tau..baru kejap tdi saya sms aman..)
  

• Think carefully before you say anything so that you don't end up saying something you'll regret. Write a script and rehearse it so that you can stick to the issues. (betul2..tapi kalu dah marah sempat ke nk pikir2 ayat? silence i better but it can kill..huhu)
  

• Work with the person who angered you to identify solutions to the situation. (huh..tanak tengok muka die skarang..)
  

• Use "I" statements when describing the problem to avoid criticizing or placing blame. For instance, say "I'm upset you didn't help with the housework this evening," instead of, "You should have helped with the housework." To do otherwise will likely upset the other person and escalate tensions. (ok..this is good)
  

• Don't hold a grudge. Forgive the other person. It's unrealistic to expect everyone to behave exactly as you want. (this one pun bagus..)
  

• Use humor to release tensions, such as imagining yourself or the other person in silly situations. Don't use sarcasm, though — it's just another form of unhealthy expression. (i can't do this alone..! surfing can help maybe..)

it's easy to read..but can i apply this? hopefully..bila dah marah kan..

upDATING :)

a colleague told me; 'adani, ko tak lawa laa pakai tudung itam..'

and some then nodding

and me just laughing..

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i can remember myself in tudung itam when i was in secondary school; for dinner, night preps, sport even, friday visit, etc. tudung putih was only worn with school uniform and other than that, tudung itam was always the only perfect match. but i then told myself not to put on any tudung itam right after i finished my secondary school. no and never. i sometimes opted to match tudung itam with any of my kurung during uni but i eventually found that my cheek looked weird chubby whenever i put it on. so i at once said no to that colour.

but i seem to turn back and looked for that colour again by end of last year when i worked as a teacher at my hometown. tudung itam happened to be my choice again since then. it wasn't really a choice anyway, it was just because i couldn't find any perfect match! myself just kept telling that black is no more suitable for me. believe it, i always wanted to stop wearing black but i just waited for time to tell the when.

and last two weeks, the time finally came. just by those simple words from a friend convincing myself that i have to totally forget tudung itam. but think twice, it would not be totally i guess. i may put it on for casual or home event, why not! but with some combination of colours. i may just avoid black next time.

anyway, trust me that i am not good at fashion. truly simple is always my tagline. i am simple and i look simple. but for future, i guess i have to be more careful in choosing colours. i used to take those meaning of colours easy but i think it's maybe good to give some attention to that. so, what's the meaning of black? some say it's a sign of unhappiness and sullenness (ye, di alam pekerjaan memang ada orang peduli and simply judging others by applying this). in an interview for example. so, anyone?

**black and i, what do you think?

hehe..received an email from a friend and it made me think that i should start reading those kind of books as well..hehe..ILMU jugak..jom baca this one together2..

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Mulianya seorang isteri disisi Allah...
Dan betapa berharganya wanita yang bergelar isteri
ini pada keluarga, suami dan anak-anak
Rugi dan binasalah suami-suami yang tidak menghargai isteri
mereka kerana isteri inilah yang akan membantu mereka di akhirat kelak.
Biarlah buruk mana isteri anda,sayangilah mereka.......

Satu lagi berita gembira untuk wanita,
Sepanjang dia mengandung Allah sentiasa mengampunkan dosanya,
Lahir saja bayi seluruh dosanya habis.
Inilah nikmat Tuhan beri kepada wanita,
jadi kenapa perlu takut nak beranak?
Marilah kita pegang kepada tali Allah.
Seandainya wanita itu mati sewaktu bersalin, itu dianggap mati syahid, Allah izinkan terus masuk Syurga.
Untuk orang bukan Islam, dia tak dapat masuk Syurga tapi Allah beri kelonggaran siksa kubur.
Untuk peringatan semua wanita yang bersuami seluruh kebaikan suaminya, semuanya isteri dapat pahala tetapi dosa-dosa suami dia tak tanggung.
Diakhirat nanti seorang wanita solehah akan terperanjat dengan pahala extra yang banyak dia terima diatas segala kebaikan suaminya yang tak disedari.
Contohnya bila dia redho suaminya pergi berjemaah di masjid atau ke majlis ilmu, bersedekah.. ganjaran Alah keatasnya jua..
Didunia lagi, kalau suami dalam kesusahan isteri boleh bantu tambah lagi di akhirat.
Kalau seorang isteri asyik merungut,mulut selalu muncung terhadap suami dia tak akan dapat pahala extra ini.

Manakala suami pula mempunyai tugas-tugas berat didalam dan diluar rumah, segala dosa-dosa anak isteri yang tak dididik dia akan tanggung ditambah lagi dengan dosa-dosa yang lain.. Dinasihatkan kepada semua wanita supaya faham akan syariat Allah agar tidak derhaka denganNya.

Sesungguhnya wanita dijadikan daripada rusuk kiri lelaki. Dia bukan dicipta dari kepala ke kaki, juga bukan dari tapak kaki. Dia dicipta dari sebelah rusuk kiri lelaki supaya dia hampir kepada kamu(lelaki), lengan lelaki dicipta untuk mempertahankan wanita, dekat dengan hati lelaki untuk disayangi.

halllluuuuuuuuuuu...!

oh lamenye xblogging. i just dont have the right time (yes, there's always time) to write here. well, there's something that i think i would like share here specifically on my daily personal life.

i'm currently working at pekan as a teacher. it's been almost a month and i'm still trying to adapt esp with the students. thankfully i have no major problem with other teachers and lecturers. cket2 tu ade la. i'm still new but i pray (pls pray for me too) that everything will go just fine. for the time being, im staying with my uncle at Indera Mahkota, Kuantan so i drive to work and it takes 45 mins. i have to work an office hour basis 8-5 xkire ade kelas ke xde kelas. like today, i only have to handle a straight 2-hours class (i'm still adapting to teach 2hours straight) from 8.15 am to 10.15 am and i'll be spending the rest of the day at ofis doing the preps, and now blogging yeay finally..etc.

actually i have already found a house to rent at sepekan jaya but again..haha still adapting with the environment. so i plan to start staying at the house this week with another 2 friends. it's just a very small house even smaller than my previous house in tmn kurnia jaya peng chepa few years back. but it's time to learn i know, to live in simplest humble way with beautiful people. yg penting dgn siapa kita bersama..kan?then len2 tu insya Allah ok. lagipun umah tu xdela teruk sangat pun. saya pun penah hidup susah before. as i said, yg penting dengan sape kita tinggal. the people we live our life with itulah yg bleh share elemen kehidupan yg akhirnya bleh menambahkan kebahagiaan kita atau sebaliknya. dulu, hidup susah pun, i was with my precious family and we were happy. and now, i pray that i can live happily with my housemate either. there might be different but insya Allah ok. lagipun another 2 friends and i are planning to step to another beautiful phase of life. insya Allah..

hmm. homesick tu mmgla. i miss my home at machang so much..at least bleh amik udara umah pun ok la.

and life after bertunang? lagi rindu ade la. huhu. and banyak kna jaga. kalau u all pun mesti sama kan? hehe. other than that, nothing much yg berubah. i'm just very thankful for the love that grows each day in me. please pray for me ya.

oklah, i think i better stop here. you people, have a great day and forget me not ya! and oh, sorry xinvite to my engagement hari tu. but i hope you understand. ada jodoh panjang umur murah rezeki nanti kawin i invite okeh.

oh, i pray to be blessed with good things ahead, amin..

26 Jan 2009

i just could not describe more

a little prayer for me..

i'm getting nervous
i'm running out of time

i'm going to attend a course from 19th to 24th Jan

and soon after i come home
i need to make myself prepared for the engagement

dear,
i'm getting engaged
it falls on monday, 26 Jan 2009

please,
pray for me ya!!
pray for me
pray for me
pray for me..

cik ann,

happy birthday to you!