Wednesday, 30 March 2011

sedihnya

sedih sangat2. dan tension sangat2. terhadap 2 benda. tapi hanya satu yg saya boleh luahkan di sini utk ringankan rasa ni.

sedihnya saya tak bersedia utk presentation 3 minit utk kelas hari isnin. saya hanya ckp ttg apa yg dh sedia ada dlm otak melalui pembacaan lepas. not a proper one. i was not well-prepared. sangat frustrated. Dr. S ada expection yg tinggi terhadap studentnya. Dr. S jgk bkn calang2 profesor. Tiba-tiba saya rasa saya xmampu perform utk semester ni. walaupun ni hanya salah satu presentation tp saya rasa kecewa sgt.



ya Allah sedihnya mlm ni. i so need someone to talk to.

ya Allah.

sedih :(

kucuba gagahi jua. sambil nangis pun takpelah.



ni pas balik dari kelas Dr. S. tension tapi ter-rawat seketika. walo apepun perasaan saya skang, deep inside my heart i miss this moment.


my good listeners.


Saturday, 26 March 2011


cantiknya purple bedroom! :) but not really the second one kan. or anyone would prefer black for a comfy bedroom?

hihi no lah im not going to talk about bedroom deco. ni saja2 cuci mata kat google. this is also one kind of therapy. you see good things, beautiful stuff, the creative ideas, it's a good way to take a break after a long surfing and reading in front of the lappy. kan? :)

currently im reading on malaysian curriculum for one of my subjects this semester. i found a great difference in learning style between the time of undergrad studies and postgrad, and this is my personal opinion. my undergrad days adalah salin dan hafal. sangat exam-oriented. but now i'm happy to realize that we can't just actually depend on one single book but the most importantly is to be able to grab other related information and current issues to be applied in our reading. that is so much better. read and think. and i'm so thankful for the teaching experience i had from primary level up to tertiary (if i can say the one with MARA is tertiary). it means a lot to me :)

seems like everything is good for this semester except for the unfinished assignments (hihi bila nk siap nih). but i'm so afraid that i am going to take the literature thing for next semester and swear i totally have no idea how am i going to catch up. my former KU at previous workplace used to remind me that i really need to work harder than others esp those who are already in this field during their first degree. i admit that. thank you kak iza! i'll figure out what to do during this sem break insya Allah.

yup sem break is just a month away. how time flies. so much actually need my attention but sometimes ignoring the workload is such a sweet antidote. hehe.

so let's movie tonight. merong mahawangsa jom? hehe ya saya ketinggalan sedikit.

Thursday, 24 March 2011

Cemerlang Kelihatan Ramai

"PUTRAJAYA: Seramai 10,488 calon sekolah Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia (KPM) dan Maktab Rendah Sains Mara (MRSM) berjaya mendapat keputusan gred cemerlang (A+,A dan A-) dalam semua mata pelajaran yang diambil dalam peperiksaan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) 2010".
(sumber Berita Harian)

secara positifnya, ini adalah satu kebanggaan. ya, cuba lihat secara positif dahulu. betapa ramainya bilangan yg mendapat gred cemerlang sehinggakan satu sistem penggredan baru (mulai 2009) diperkenalkan untuk mengecilkan lagi skop cemerlang untuk digunapakai ke kemasukan IPTA/IPTS atau kelayakan mendapat tajaan atau biasiswa. Suka atau tidak, mahu atau tidak mahu, inilah yang harus kita terima especially bagi calon-calon SPM. Inilah tiket, inilah pengukuran. Kalau saya berada di tempat pihak2 yang memilih untuk kelayakan yang saya sebut tadi, mau pening kepala saya memilih. Hehe. Kita sebagai pihak pelaksana hanya boleh berusaha yg terbaik. Nak kondem boleh, tapi kena sediakan lah sekali CADANGAN method yang lebih baik, kan? Trust me, being in education field memang sangat mencabar. I know that! Ni tak masuk isu kualiti lagi, isu disiplin lagi.

Ok, meh nak cerita sikit berkenaan sistem penggredan. Ni saya tampal table yg saya ambil dari Haslina.

Gred Lama Gred Baru Markah Nilai GPK Nilai PNG Tahap
1A A+ 90 – 100 1 4.0 CEMERLANG TERTINGGI
1A A 80 – 89 1 3.75 CEMERLANG TINGGI
2A A- 70 -79 2 3.50 CEMERLANG
3B B+ 65 – 69 3 3.25 KEPUJIAN TERTINGGI
4B B 60 – 64 4 3.00 KEPUJIAN TINGGI
5C C+ 55 – 59 5 2.75 KEPUJIAN ATAS
6C C 50 – 54 6 2.50 KEPUJIAN
7D D 45 – 49 7 2.25 LULUS ATAS
8E E 40 – 44 8 2.00 LULUS
9G G 0 – 39 9 1.75 GAGAL

or you can refer to this Pekeliling.

bila saya baca blog2 or forum or comments org awam, ramai yg timbulkan sisi negatif pasal pendidikan Malaysia skarang.

'Eleh, A je banyak..tapi last2 ntah ke mana jgk..'

'Eiii buat ape la tukar2 sistem..nk dapat A pun susah..'

dan macam2 lagi yg saya rasa xperlu la saya ketengahkan kat sini. Itulah persepsi. Tepuk dada tanya selera. Nk positif atau negatif. Saya sendiri ada pengalaman berharga tentang pentingnya mengubah persepsi. Maybe next time saya cerita.

Benar, kejayaan seseorang bukan diukur pada bilangan A sahaja. Malah dalam Falsafah Pendidikan Malaysia pun dah terang2 cakap psl matlamat nk develop potensi individu, nk melahirkan individu yg balance intellectually, emotionally, physically dan spiritually. Yang penting nilai-nilai murni dalam hidup yang boleh dibawa sampai mati. Tapi inilah tiket untuk menentukan hala tuju pelajar seterusnya. The world keeps on changing. So, persepsi sgt penting for me. Perception can change emotion. Nk melahirkan citizen macam ni bukanlah 100% tugas cikgu-cikgi/educator sahaja. Komuniti pun perlu bagi support. Dalam komuniti tulah ada golongan ibu, bapa, keluarga seseorang pelajar kan?

So, chaiyok semua! :) All The Best!!!

Tuesday, 22 March 2011

i love being naughty with you

Dalam banyak2 gamba kahwin, saya paling suka tatap yang dua ni :)
Each tells smile and laughter and happiness. Alhamdulillah syukran ya Allah.



3 things that i cherish most in our life:
  1. pillow-talk
  2. sebelum, semasa dan selepas solat berjemaah - even selalu delay 2 3 minit walaupun dah sedia pakai telekung dan bentang sejadah. why delay? us being so 'naughty' ;)
  3. saya terharu sangat setiap kali suami saya turun bawah dan sambut saya balik dari kelas waktu malam. terima kasih sayang!
cukup 3 diabadikan di sini, for me. and i believe that each and everyone of us have our own sweet moments to always be remembered, to look back, to think of, at least to keep us feel 'accompanied', always for sure or at anytime we need to or feel like.

Me sitting alone now in our utility room on this rainy day, it makes me smile thinking of those above 3 of mine (us). i can't wait to have him home this evening.

oh dear husband, i just love being naughty with you.




ok! jgn senyum sorang2 lama sangat. assignment masih banyak dan exam juga sudah tidak lama lagi.

have a happy day semua and wish me luck!

Saturday, 19 March 2011

siti nor's reception

hi, that is my wedding portrait with the farisians. they really made my day :)
and oh it was a year ago in 2010, on 13th feb to be exact. what a lovely day.
kly, jeda, siti nor, fatin, rodz & apis, peje, jamar, cik ann, paka, amin & aza, yusran and hasif.

another lovely purple wedding that i attended today. reception of siti nor & hafies on 19 march 2011. and we the farisian were able to meet up again, to capture another sweet moment celebrating our friend's love day.

gamba JMR tp xmintak izin hihi
(cik zal, jeda, cik ann, mc anie, aza, me, nunu, pok jat's wife, pok jat, jamar, juzle, my husband, amin)

congratulation nor and husband. i pray that both of you bahagia sokmo and cepat-cepat dapat cahaya mata insya Allah.

the girls, sebelum zal and ain sampai.

gamba JMR tp xmintak izin jgk hihi

us and ain the mummy-to-be :)

among all, i truly admire this last photo. just so very nice. both have the same look and smile. and they look perfect, siti nor and cik ann :)


wedding is beautiful.


credit to cik ann and JMR for these photos :)

Tuesday, 15 March 2011

coklat merah

Close friends and who ever reading my previous entry may know that before this my husband and i stayed apart from each other. I was at Pekan, he is in KL and we only meet during weekend and holidays. So, we have Pekan home and KL home during that days.

I knew that my husband and I will eventually live together one day like we manage now but as a woman i just could not stand the emptiness or dullness of that Pekan home what more to stay alone during weekdays. I need some colour to cheer my day up. I mean many ladies will do this kan? Contohnya go to kedai perabot weekly for cuci mata and at the same time aiming for something that you would like to have. I did this during my Pekan days, hehe.

So, i ended up buying set of dining table and a few small shelves. Good that i managed to remind myself not to over spend on perabot thingy because later i will move to KL.

Then i realized that Pekan and KL home actually have different theme. Pekan home came out with brown theme and my husband actually prefers red colour for KL home in the very first place. Hehe. Why did not I stick to red for Pekan home as well? It is because the wall was painted light creamy yellow. Hehe.

December 2010, it was the time for me to move to KL. I can never imagine how can red work well with brown before this but this time i just have to believe my eyes, just because we actually have no option. Not bad kot hehe. Here take a look.





Ok, the last picture is like apple analogy. The red skin actually mix well with its turned brown isi kan? ;)

Well, in order for those furniture to mix good, I added some red+brown element to it for example the carpet, alas meja makan, and also the red cushion for the dining chair.

Ok tak ok tak? Sila sedapkan hati saya ;)

Yup not bad for us at all. This rare combination actually makes me love our little space even more. I am not bored so far.

Tapi next time we need to carefully plan our home sweet home la kan.

Luckily this combination works well together this time and we love it.

Monday, 14 March 2011

nyawa lebih berharga

It has been a long time since our last movie, say a month? So last night we went to catch 127 hours at WangsaWalk TGV. Thankfully it is just 15mins away from home and we can normally go purchase our ticket way earlier, come back home for routine and head again to cinema 20 minutes before the showing time.

I insisted to watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa at first but the ticket i mean at our preferable time was already sold out. So 127 hours is the next option and it was not bad at all.



This is James Franco and guess what he is doing for that approximately 127 hours? Oh the climax is so mencabut jantung i tell you. Nasib baik couple seat and i just looked at the screen through my fingers. But then it made me realize that this kind of enthusiastic man appreciates his life more than anything walaupun takde ****** but what matters is life must go on. And yeah, please leave a message for your loved one whenever you are going out somewhere for anything happen in case, because we can actually never live this world alone. We may need even a little help, who knows.

This film is actually based on true story of Aron Ralston who is a climber and went out hiking in Blue John Canyon, Utah, trapped alone for almost 5 days and finally survived. A nice one to watch except the darah2 part hehe, unbelievable for me at first.

Anyway we are still planning for Merong Mahawangsa tho. Pagi2 lg Anuar Zain dh nyanyi lagu 'Sedetik Lebih' oh sgt memanggil. i know MM is another kind of Alice-in-Wonderland-vs-Magika but why not supporting? hehe. JMR's review is quite convincing too. Can't wait!

Now i need to struggle for my test first. The test will be on friday so wish me luck.

Saturday, 12 March 2011

HAPPY & MOTIVATED

those are the best feeling ever.
contrary to my previous post,
i enjoy being extra happy and motivated now
and for the past few days actually.
i just could not tell the reason why,
i just don't know.
but good thing is we need no reason to be happy, right?
so Alhamdulillah for this feeling
that at least for now.

well, this is an impact from my previous post perhaps.
be thankful, God will give you more
in a way that you can never imagine.
so i pray to always stay strong and focused
because i just love to feel the peaceful way i feel now.
syukran.

hi people,
do SMILE :)



image googled

Wednesday, 9 March 2011

i actually almost cry this morning but thankfully the past apparently taught me to be strong. it was just few little drops during my subuh prayer and i then smiled strong and happy again accepting the fact. it was just the same feeling i was confronting last year but this time with greater strength.

i keep on moving. living my life good. enjoying whatever life brings. struggling to do what i am struggling for now. loving the one by my side.

i am thankful.


just 'i'