Wednesday, 29 October 2008

reason to be happy

Attended cousin’s engagement reception on 26th Oct 2008 at Carcosa, KL. The photos are still in progress I guess and I hope to hear from maksu soon once the photos are ready. It was a memorable night that I also had Aman with me and seeing him mixed with the family.

On another different note, I’ll be celebrating my 25th birthday this coming Saturday but since I spent the past few days in KL, I surprisingly received a present from Aman, who else! So say heellooooooooooo to this clone of my Sonia. Mine is bronze in colour.


Thanks Aman:) Well I can remember the last time I bought a hand phone was in 2002, that nokia 3310 you know which rarely found (or no more found) at any display counter today. Oh I wonder if any retailer would still accept a trade-in! Then my brother amea, the one who used to ejek2 my Nokia 3310 had kindly gave me another smaller model of nokia (I cant remember the series) but still work the same function cam 3310 gak. And finally yesterday I got this Sonia, of course I felt happy la kan. Aman asked me to always keep that old Nokia kot2 besok2 harga naik balik sbb jadik barang antik! Huhu.


Well, let’s talk about yesterday. Went out to the middle of KL to attend an, I would like to say it here as appointment. Things only settled after 12 noon and I then asked Aman to fetch me so that we can go out for lunch. He only went back to office at almost 3 hehe and I decided to spend the rest of the afternoon at Suria Park while waiting for him finishing his work. My favorite areas? The swimming pool and playground. I could hear and see cheerful laughter and many happy faces of kids together with their parents.

There were two kids running towards the swing and I could clearly hear this;

“ayah ayah, meh tolak adik!”

“a’ah, abang pun nk tolak”

And the father quickly do as they wished. Another laughter!

Then came this one little Indian girl with her mommy.

“Mommy I want to play this..”

“Ok five minutes ya!” so her mom replied. And guess what the girl then say;

“No no, I want 10 minutes please”. And then again, another laughter.

Oh happy kids. They made me feel good that day.

And me, I was happy in my own way too. I am happy. AT LEAST FOR NOW.

And friends, I hope that you are happy too, not only for now, but always.


Thursday, 23 October 2008

bila cinta diuji

mungkin cinta paling sinonim dengan usia remaja, kerana pada waktu itulah lumrah cinta mula menjalar dalam diri setiap makhluk yang bergelar insan yang mencetuskan naluri ingin mencintai dan dicintai. paling tidak pun, seseorang itu sudah kenal perkataan cinta, mula memikirkan cinta atau bercakap mengenai cinta yang sememangnya mempunyai pengertian yang luas. sesetengah individu mungkin mampu mengendalikan perasaan tersebut dengan baik, dan ada juga yang sebaliknya. maklumlah, agaknya seronok pertama kali dilanda perasaan sebegitu.

namun sebaik usia meningkat, kita semakin menyedari bahawa cinta itu sebenarnya sesuatu yang sangat sukar untuk dimengertikan. zaman remaja seronok 'tackle-menackle'. apabila usia menginjak ke fasa baru, kita diusik pula dengan perasaan bila dirisik untuk dijadikan pasangan hidup seseorang di alam rumah tangga. pada waktu itu, mungkin pengertian cinta menjadi lebih serius dan berlandaskan tanggungjawab.

di usia ini, beberapa hari sebelum menginjak ke angka 25, berada dalam dunia pekerjaan dan bergaul dengan masyarakat, saya mula merasakan bahawa cinta adalah sesuatu yang subjektif dan memang sukar. saya akui, saya kini dikelilingi individu-individu yang mempunyai pelbagai masalah rumahtangga. entahlah, saya sendiri tidak faham kenapa saya dipilih sebagai tempat meluahkan masalah sedangkan saya belumpun melangkah ke alam itu. kadang-kadang terfikir juga saya, di mana indahnya alam rumahtangga. tidakkah seindah pertama kali dilanda rasa cinta. kenapa wujud perbezaan rasa sebelum dan selepas?

kisah 1,
seorang kawan saya baru sahaja berkahwin dan menjadi isteri nombor dua dengan persetujuan paksa rela daripada si isteri pertama. boleh dikatakan setiap hari saya mendengar luahan hati isteri muda ini tentang kehidupan barunya sebagai orang kedua. sudah tentu banyak yang pahit daripada yang manis. dan saya, angguk-angguk saja, sekali-sekala berfikir apakah pengajaran yang saya mungkin dapat atau sekadar berdiam agar fikiran dan perasaan saya tidak dipengaruhi oleh kisah sebegitu.

kisah 2,
juga seorang kawan yang asyik mengadu bila si suami mula bercinta dengan orang lain. yang ini, saya lebih rela membiarkan kata-katanya masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri. jika tidak, saya terpaksa berkali-kali memberitahu diri bahawa tidak semua lelaki begitu.

bila mendengar kisah sebegitu, terlintas di fikiran saya, adakah cinta mereka sedang diuji?

cinta remaja
cinta rumahtangga
cinta suami orang

itukah peringkat cinta? oh takutnya yang ketiga itu. anda pernah? paling tidak pun ada suami orang yang mula meluahkan perasaannya pada anda. di usia yang semakin menginjak, tiada yang mustahil kan?

memang bukan mustahil.

bila perkara sebegini berlaku, mungkin itulah tanda bahawa cinta sedang diuji. manusia, sedarlah, cinta adakalanya diuji!

dan untuk diri saya, saya doakan agar saya dapat terus memelihara cinta yang saya ada, cinta yang saya miliki, hanya untuk seseorang yang benar-benar saya sayangi. hanya satu selamanya.

apapun pengertian cinta..

Wednesday, 15 October 2008

rini, this post is for u!

oh rini, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you!!


hi semua :) ni rini. cantik kan? hehe. i know her since our first year kat utm, bersama ngn atul. satu course, sebilik, kdg2 sepinggan, sebantal, secawan dan sebagainya. and mostly, she's the person whom i feel comfortable enough to share my story about me and aman. haha. sbb die xknal aman kot. mm, bile dh jadi roomate, kdg2 baik, kdg2 gaduh. haha. rini, kite slalu gak gaduh kan smpi masam2 muka. tapi cool balik. tu yg best. byk la citer2 dulu pasal kami berdua dan group mbr yg len tapi panjang plak nnt nk citer kat sini:) rindu plak zaman kat utm. tapi yg saya ingat sampai hari ni, macam mana rini ni jaga saya masa demam dlu. kol 1, 2 pagi pun die still lap badan saya ngan tuala basah. she took a very good care of me. thank you thank you thank you.

last year, masa mula2 keje kat seremban, rini n mak rini pun slalu support. pernah nangis depan mak rini sbb tension n rindu nk balik umah. hehe. tapi, rini n her mom mmg veeeeery nice.

rini, a lot to say here i know but the simplest is, i'm glad to know you, always. i pray that u live a happy life ahead n cepat2 jumpa ur prince charming:) be happy keh. you always deserve the best. i love you, friend!

Monday, 6 October 2008

no photos

hari raya was meaningful as always, Alhamdulillah. some members of the family were married this year which means that they were having to celebrate hari raya at in-laws' as well, but thank God that we managed to find a day to get all families gathered. it was friday and i felt sorry that i could not attend some invites, esp cik ann (oh nama cik ann disebut lagi). well, the gathering was special that we received a visit from some special people and this moment will be kept forever in my heart i know.

no photos.

i wish i could upload some photos to share here so that i dont have to find words to describe the every moment and the feels it bring but i dont have any. the camera was there i know but all of us were busy doing the i-dont-know-what-we-did-but-we-enjoyed-the-moment-of-it. a lot to say but i better i keep it to my heart only. dont blame me. blame words. they never want to 'show up'.

no photos.

now everyone has made their move leaving me with the memories and the feeling comes again.
rindu.

no photos.