Sunday, 15 March 2009


a colleague told me; 'adani, ko tak lawa laa pakai tudung itam..'
and some then nodding
and me just laughing..

i can remember myself in tudung itam when i was in secondary school; for dinner, night preps, sport even, friday visit, etc. tudung putih was only worn with school uniform and other than that, tudung itam was always the only perfect match. but i then told myself not to put on any tudung itam right after i finished my secondary school. no and never. i sometimes opted to match tudung itam with any of my kurung during uni but i eventually found that my cheek looked weird chubby whenever i put it on. so i at once said no to that colour.

but i seem to turn back and looked for that colour again by end of last year when i worked as a teacher at my hometown. tudung itam happened to be my choice again since then. it wasn't really a choice anyway, it was just because i couldn't find any perfect match! myself just kept telling that black is no more suitable for me. believe it, i always wanted to stop wearing black but i just waited for time to tell the when.

and last two weeks, the time finally came. just by those simple words from a friend convincing myself that i have to totally forget tudung itam. but think twice, it would not be totally i guess. i may put it on for casual or home event, why not! but with some combination of colours. i may just avoid black next time.

anyway, trust me that i am not good at fashion. truly simple is always my tagline. i am simple and i look simple. but for future, i guess i have to be more careful in choosing colours. i used to take those meaning of colours easy but i think it's maybe good to give some attention to that. so, what's the meaning of black? some say it's a sign of unhappiness and sullenness (ye, di alam pekerjaan memang ada orang peduli and simply judging others by applying this). in an interview for example. so, anyone?

**black and i, what do you think?