elyna & fikri

i was so so touched when the bride texted me asking my current address so that she could send me the invitation. thank you so much lyn. it was really a great pleasure to be there at your wedding and honestly, i've always wanted to be there since the day i received the lovely card. my pleasure :) and Alhamdulillah, Tuhan memudahkan ani & jeme ke sana; kuantan-kl 3jamstgh je, my mom n aunty were both in kl.

i mean it. i so admire the wedding. simplicity in elegance; the gold theme, the music, the self-made pelamin, and mostly the warmest welcome by the family made the wedding so ______.

and another best part is to get together again with some farisians esp lyn herself whom i last met 9 years back when collecting the SPM result.

so i have no more to say here. let's just recall the moments.

to lyn and leput, i wish you both a happy-ever-after, to be blessed with wonderful family and blissful life, insyaallah.

*hugs

fry-day

i felt the same last friday 17 apr 09.

i was just soo lazy to go to my morning n afternoon classes.
i just could not focus.
the first 2hours in the morning seem sooo long.
and i ended up my 2hours class in the evening just chatting with my students
after 30mins of discussion on our lesson of the day.
i just could not concentrate.
the heart n mind n soul left me alone.
i only managed to get them back on the next day in kl.
beautiful last weekend yeay!

this friday 24 apr 09.

the same feeling again.
mom is still in kl so i plan to spend my weekend there again.
ohh i sooo can't wait for tomorrow.
to see aman.
to see mom.
to see lovely sister.
to see friends.
oh i'm going to attend a wedding as well!
and again,
the heart n mind n soul have always made their first move leaving me alone here.
i struggle hard to stay focus and attend my classes.
i planned a discussion for my morning class and prepared some riddles to help time passes quick.
i planned a task and presentation for my next class so that the students and i do the talking equally for each hour.
done!
i packed my things when it was 10mins to 5 and got ready to drive home at 5 sharp :)
i just can't wait to end today.
i went shopping on my way back and only arrived home at 8pm.
oh i just can't wait to end today.

i think the best way is to go to bed earlier.
so that i don't have to wait any minutes until tomorrow comes.

tomorrow, come quick!
and please be nice and give me another happy weekend.

yawn~

i know i know. dah lama orang bercerita pasal jangan tegur. hehe. went to kl last weekend and i watched this on sunday. smalam la tu. yeay that i insisted aman to watch this. tapi kan, nape saya cam xperasan scene di atas? nampak sangat la tgk sambil tutup mata kan. memang citer ni banyak terkejut2 tapi konsepnye sama je. h*ntu nk sampaikan sesuatu mesej kpd org yg dipilih untuk disetelkan. solute lah nadia mustapha. i admire her character the most.

kdg2, masa awal citer, rasa kelakar jgk. bkn citer ni yg klakar. tapi reaksi audience skalian. so dalam cinema hari tu, gelak-jerit-gelak-jerit-gelak-jerit-tutup mata sampai la julia ziegler dh bertukar jadi alien at almost end. time tu dah semangat nk tgk betul2 tanpa tutup mata.

tapi saya tak paham, apa kena-mengena ngan tajuk jgn tegur? tegurankah yg mencetus? bukan start ngan julia accident ke?

oklah, get back to work. dah xngantuk. 20 mins before 5 yeay!

lady's problem, maybe

my simple beautiful life..


read her previous entry '...only dead fish swim with the stream' over again. she's right. problem is a part of life. i once wondered if there's anyone living this beautiful world without problem and i envy those kind. but now i start to believe that anybody may have their own problem. small one, or big one. take a long time, or a short time. can be solved, or no way out. and above all, the most important is to know what the problem exactly is and find the way to get out of that. is it easy, human?

well, haha. i feel like crying now, and for the past few days actually. AND I DON'T KNOW IF I ACTUALLY HAVE A PROBLEM..kuangkuangkuang..well, maybe yes that i have problems. perhaps and hopefully small one :)

anyway, i sometimes question myself why people esp ladies tend to try solving or lessening the burden by doing something irrelevant. example? ok here:

Problem? torn between two,

• get a new car or;
  
• continue saving for a big event

Solution?

• go for a haircut

So irrelevant kan?


But yes, maybe it is just a small part of the problem solving; to reduce stress and console the mind to think right again.

think first?

oh i'm so so not in the mood. a supposed-to-be good start of the day has been spoilt by someone whom i closely work with.

i tried to concentrate on my work but updating the marks didn't really help. what else to do?

• i just need to talk to someone, so i texted aman.
  
• i surf and i found that poster that led me to a searching of anger management.
• now i'm reading a few tips.
  

so some of the Anger Management Tips:

• Take a "time out." Although it may seem cliche, counting to 10 before reacting, or leaving the situation altogether, really can defuse your temper. (not that easy..)
  

• Do something physically exerting. Physical activity can provide an outlet for your emotions, especially if you're about to erupt. Go for a brisk walk or a run, swim, lift weights or shoot baskets. (kalu kat ofis? have to do something MENTALLY exerting kah? ok i'm now surfing n blogging)
  

• Find ways to calm and soothe yourself. Practice deep-breathing exercises, visualize a relaxing scene, or repeat a calming word or phrase to yourself, such as "take it easy." You can also listen to music, paint, journal or do yoga. (i always do this..tapi ade limit jugak kan..kalu dah beyond the limit?)
  

• Once you're calm, express your anger as soon as possible so that you aren't left stewing. If you simply can't express your anger in a controlled manner to the person who angered you, try talking to a family member, friend, counselor or another trusted person. (saya setuju..xleh pendam tau..baru kejap tdi saya sms aman..)
  

• Think carefully before you say anything so that you don't end up saying something you'll regret. Write a script and rehearse it so that you can stick to the issues. (betul2..tapi kalu dah marah sempat ke nk pikir2 ayat? silence i better but it can kill..huhu)
  

• Work with the person who angered you to identify solutions to the situation. (huh..tanak tengok muka die skarang..)
  

• Use "I" statements when describing the problem to avoid criticizing or placing blame. For instance, say "I'm upset you didn't help with the housework this evening," instead of, "You should have helped with the housework." To do otherwise will likely upset the other person and escalate tensions. (ok..this is good)
  

• Don't hold a grudge. Forgive the other person. It's unrealistic to expect everyone to behave exactly as you want. (this one pun bagus..)
  

• Use humor to release tensions, such as imagining yourself or the other person in silly situations. Don't use sarcasm, though — it's just another form of unhealthy expression. (i can't do this alone..! surfing can help maybe..)

it's easy to read..but can i apply this? hopefully..bila dah marah kan..