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24 hours seems to be so short. morning, afternoon, evening, night and the next day keep coming, makes us closer to the wedding; amea's wedding. the second in my sibling.

we have already collected the invitation cards and it's now ready to be distributed. being a personal assistant, i helped mom with the invitation list and took advantage to list down a few of my friends whose name is always familiar to my mom. and to be true, mom suggested me to do that.

for the big day, everyone in the family has been asked to put on green representing the groom's side. it must be great to see all of us unite in one theme and i can't wait to get mine ready as soon as the tailor can.

deep my heart, it was so touched when i first took a look on the invitation card that i burst into tears. the simple card is very well written as if everyone was there making a real complete family although abah and grandpa were not around anymore. their names are not in the card but that was how i felt.

"rase cam semua ade.." so i told mom before i noticed that clear drops coming out of her eyes too, telling me the same way she felt :)

hidup

dalam suka duka yang saya hadapi, saya sedar kini. saya telah memandang pintu yang tertutup itu terlalu lama, hingga saya terlupa menoleh pintu-pintu lain yang mungkin terbuka untuk saya. dalam suka yang saya hadapi juga, beberapa duka tetap ada menghuni hati. walau sehebat mana saya merawat dan melawannya, kekadang ia masih muncul tidak kira saya sedar atau tidak. syukurlah, kerana pengajaran yang saya peroleh ini akan saya ingat sentiasa.

"to stand strong for the rest of life is to cry out loud at the very beginning of occurrence"

my 9th Feb 2008

it's now 10.30pm and i guess aman is still on his way home. he left at 9.45pm after eating dinner and early supper (if i could call it supper) at my place with mom and the rest. it has been a long while since the last day we met, somewhere in december last year. i was happy to see him in front of my door this afternoon, really was. we planned to lunch at home at the beginning but then i decided to hang out spending time just for us both. so we made a move after having laksa and performing zohor. we went home at 5.30pm. meaningful was the best word. but, something has actually disturbed my heart, about which i dont think to write here. let me take this whole night to go in depth of it and i'll continue writing the finding tomorrow. i wish myself a peaceful night tonight.

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cik ann calls me ani. so do my parents. so do aman. so do some of my family mbrs. so do very few other friends.

cik zal calls me ada. she's the only one and i dont know why. hehe. but it's ok.

gie calls me A. i introduced myself as A when i was in Kolej Negeri. haha. just felt very comfortable with that nickname among my colleagues.

farisya calls me adan. this girl is also a single person calling me adan. i appreciate it as well.

and the rest, just call me adani. just? yup, just. when i was young, i mean when i was kid, i did ask my abah to get a new name for me. and i suggested him 'nina'. uweeekkkkkkssssss! (how could i reveal!!) thank GOD that abah has never take it seriously. or else, i guess i'll be regreting that silly idea.

since ever, many people seem to get wrong idea about this 'adani'.

"boleh saya cakap ngan adani?"
"laaa..perempuan..ingatkan lelaki..."

"sape adani...?"
"oo..perempuan ek.."

i always refuse to tell whoever asking, the meaning of 'adani'. i keep it for myself but i guarantee you, it brings a good meaning.

adani: strange but easy.