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foodie food

2012-01-31T00:35:00.001+08:00

went to Ben's last friday night for my sister in law's birthday dinner. the below menu is the best steak i ever had. mengasyikkan and mengenyangkan. i love the ambience too. google for more ok and you may as well try ;)

the lovely husband who will be away soon. sobs will miss you much!

hehehe

2012-01-26T19:01:00.001+08:00

nak tergelak la plak tulis entri ni. haha. maafkan saya atas entri ini, haha i mean agak kekok jgkla nk tulis and tepek gamba sini, to publish this kind of entri. cam syok sendiri pulak. takde keje? eh ade..masak pun blom lagi nih hehe ;) this is my personal blog of course tapi bila nak di publish, haruslah ade perasaan ini. lainlah kalu lepas tulis i simpan entri ni dalam laci bilik umah i kan? ;)

bukan apa, rasa boring pulak dgn tudung lama. sejak jadi student ni saya tahu saya sempoi sgt. pakai tudung yg sama je i mean gilir2 4 tudung yg plg suka. i love the way i am. asalkan selesa and that is prinsipku. fashion2 style2 ni jauh sekali la i'm not that type. my husband pun kenal i sejak zaman i comot lagi hihi. so this is just between myself and i. i actually have lllllllotss of tudung tapi tergantung saje sejak tak kerja ni. i am currently so not into them all and i don't know why. padahal those are from ariani and some are from other established brand yg coraknya cantik2 la. but now hanya tersusun tergantung tidak ku sentuh diri mereka. i even gave some to my cousin so berguna jgkla tudung tu kan for her. yang lain simpan la. mana tahu kot2 one day tetiba terasa nk pakai balik semuanyeee hehe.

alahai panjang pulak mukadimah. isi kandungannya sebenar ialah, tadi i pergi jln tar together with my sis in law. nk usha tudung lah. hehe sekali rasa ingin mencuba tudung ni; 2 pieces.

ok jgk pada mata saya. takde la buruk sangat. ye ke?

tapi leceh la pakai spek. rasanya kalu tak pakai spek lagi ok kot. cam kat bawah ni. tapi takkan nk tanggalkan spek semata2 tak nak nampak pelik kan. haha teraba2 nanti sendiri jgk susah. i maafkan u wahai spek ;)

ok ke tak ok kena tanya my husband lah actually kan. i hope dah beli ni i akan pakai lah. huhu. banyak sgt benda yg i beli tapi end up tak pakai. sape sama perangai dgn saya angkat tgn? hehe akhirnya asyik ulang pakai apa yg dirasakan selesa and betul2 suka je. kan kan kan ;)

oklah dh tak tahan gelak dah masa mengambik gamba ni. hehe malu tapi nk post. tadi ade jgk usha blouse tapi cam biase lah susah benar nk jumpe yg berkenan. jaranglah, labuh sangat lah, singkatlah, ketat sangatlah hish susah susah. nak cari blouse utk gadis melayu di negara sendiri Malaysia tercinta pun susah. ade tak pereka melayu yg sudi menepati ciri2 blouse yg sy suka? hikhik ok lah bye ;)

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lovely day lovely night

2012-01-19T23:01:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah syukur ya Allah atas segala rahmat & kasih sayang-Mu. semoga diriku menjadi insan yg lebih dkt dgn-Mu ya Allah.

hubby is already home. baaaaanyaakk coklat from labuan and also sotong he brought back. coklat tu syok la makan hihi. sotong? 'syok' jgk masak hikhik. for today i cooked sotong sambal. what would be next? cepat2 meh idea dtg. sape ade idea sila list kan yeeee ;) sotong goreng and what else? sotong goreng tepung saya sgt fail. huhu xpe will search for more nnti.

esok ramai yg dh start balik kg for cuti chinese new year. we both tak balik. next weekend baru saya balik kg together with my sis in law naik bus since my hubby will be leaving for lautan again. memandangkan now cuti sem, bolehlah saya spend time di kg kejap.

kejapnya masa berlalu. 30th jan dh kena register for 3rd semester. result plak belum sepenuhnya keluar. debaran jugaklah menantikan result penuh. keep praying for the best. insya Allah. berdoa dan tawakal. lagi sebulan nk melangkah ke sem 3. moga dipermudahkan ya Allah.

hey, tomorrow will be friday. so, yeay! ;) you enjoy yours ok :)

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night alone syndrome

2012-01-17T04:07:00.001+08:00

happens when hubby is not around for outstation.
and i would not be able to sleep sound all night.
especially for the first night.

it is 4.04 am now and tell me what to do to have my beauty sleep.
thank you.

husband i miss you!

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demi masa

2012-01-16T22:38:00.001+08:00

saya baru selesai solat isyak. muhasabah seketika tatkala perbualan bersama sepupu siang tadi menerjah telinga. sepupu saya yg lebih muda setahun menyambut ulang tahun kelahirannya hari ni. saya ke rumahnya utk sama2 meraikan hari istimewa baginya. namun sebelum pulang, satu perbualan ringkas antara kami cukup memberi makna pada saya. kami pada mulanya sekadar berseloroh, tapi seloroh itu lah yg masih terkesan hingga kini.

lantas selesai isyak tadi, saya merenung seketika. betapa usia ini bukan sekadar nombor. jujur saya katakan, selama ini saya langsung tidak kisah akan peningkatan usia saya. saya bangga mengatakan 'age is just a number'. bukan saya tidak memikirkan soal mati. itu satu hal yg lain. tua atau muda, lambat atau cepat, mati itu pasti. namun, entahlah. mungkin disebabkan saya memiliki badan yg kecil, ke mana pun saya pergi pada usia akhir 20-an ini, orang sekeliling tidak sekali menduga bahawa saya ialah berumur saya sebenar. itu salah satu faktor barang kali. itu jugalah yg mempengaruhi cara saya melihat diri saya; 'age is just a number'.

sehinggalah perbualan tadi, membawa lamunan saya hingga sekarang. banyak persoalan yg terlintas di fikiran saya tentang kematangan hidup bukan sahaja di sekeliling rakan-rakan sebaya malah di sekeliling mereka yg usianya sudah cukup dewasa. apatah lagi di kalangan seluruh keluarga yg bukan sahaja terdiri drpd sepupu, malah pakcik dan makcik, datuk dan nenek. itu belum termasuk keupayaan melalui cabaran hidup.

betapa usia bukan sekadar nombor.
betapa hidup bukan sekadar belajar, bekerja dan berkawan.

mujurlah, soal cinta hati saya tidak termasuk dlm persoalan ini. namun saya pasti, cinta hati saya juga sebenarnya telah banyak mengajar; kerana pada saya utk satu-satunya hal ini, usia cinta saya bukan sekadar nombor.

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nasi goreng simple

2012-01-13T16:03:00.001+08:00

hehe post pasal makanan lg. woke up late this morning. i only managed to get to the kitchen by 7.30 am. hubby came telling me that he needs to get out early at 8 so ok i need to make it quick. i even asked him to help me iron his baju kerja and he did.

and wow, i realized today that i only took 15 minutes to get that nasi goreng ready. what an achievement harus lah kecoh di sini haha. simple katanya mesti la cepat. orang lain buat lagi la berdesup pantasnya.

bahan2
bawang putih, cili padi, ikan bilis ditumbuk xberapa halus.
isi ayam potong dadu.
telur.
sayur.
nasi.
kicap.

cara2
tumis bahan yg ditumbuk agak2 naik bau.
masukkan ayam dan biar sampai ayam masak.
masukkan garam dan lain2 perasa kegemaran.
masukkan telur sebiji. kacau2.
ok masukkan nasi. gaul sebati.
masukkan kicap sikit saja utk mewarnakan dgn lembut.
sebelum tutup api, masukkan sayuran yg dipotong.
gaul sekejap je dan tutup api. sayur tak perlu terlalu masak.

itu saja. actually my husband tak makan sayur tapi kalau takde sayur nmpk plain sgt pulak. so i add sayur la. saya juga lah yg makan hehe.

utk nasi goreng saya memang suka guna bilis. the first step is actually to goreng the telur first based on certain suggestion tapi saya rasa takde beza pun. husband pun tak complain. his only response is 'nyumm nyumm'. hah ok la tu kan. tapi kalau nak masak utk org yg betul2 sensitif rasa, kena goreng telur dulu la kot.

kalau kat kedai mmg saya tak order nasi goreng melainkan nasi goreng pattaya. saya hanya makan nasi goreng yg dimasak di rumah. melainkan dah takda choice.

oklah. i think nak try another version of nasi goreng jgk. in case nk tukar2 menu. tukar la sangat. hehe ;)

ok bye.

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nasi lemak megi sup

2012-01-11T17:43:00.002+08:00

mungkin dah lama tak masak heavy breakfast for my husband, so while i was preparing nasi lemak this morning, beliau seraya bertanya:

husband: by buat apa?
wife: nk msk nasi lemak.
husband: hmm, pelik betul la.
wife: ha?

haha. abg gurau je kan kan kan ;)

minggu exam baru2 ni mmg saya jarang masak. samada makan kat luar atau tapau. hehe. now dah cuti kena rajin masak lah kot. kot? ;) apepun, looking back, syukur sgt saya mempunyai suami yg memahami and tolerate. Alhamdulillah so far, he has always been a great husband and friend. insya Allah saya doakan sampai2 bila.

mlm ni nk masak megi sup ok tak? rasanya2 secret recipe dlm sup2 is black paper and air rebusan daging kan?

2012-01-09T21:57:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah exam dah habis. Segalanya kuserahkan pada-Mu ya Allah.

2 minggu kebelakangan saya byk update pasal kerja2 saya kat sini. thanks again lyn. it was very helpful. i set my specific target and get it done. satu motivasi.

tak dinafikan, being a student kdg2 bleh rasa down and malas bile kerja terlalu byk dan pelbagai perkara yg perlu di catch up. so insya Allah, utk tugasan yg seterusnya nanti, saya akan menulis satu blog khusus utk didedikasikan kpd perjalanan saya sebagai pelajar, dari yg sekecil-kecilnya perkara.

terima kasih lyn utk inspirasi ini.

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2012-01-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah dah selesai dua paper.
Paper terakhir isnin depan.

Tonight is lazy night.
I just spend my time watching drama.

Tomorrow and weekend will be dedicated for:
article critique editing before submission tomorrow. -done
write up- linguistics. -done
revision- linguistics.

saturday at 2.30: meeting for final project. -done

akan update lg isnin minggu depan.

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2012-01-05T13:50:00.001+08:00

rabu (11.1.12):
collect buku statistik
jumpa kak salwah at blok i

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2012-01-02T22:55:00.001+08:00

done with my statistical analysis Alhamdulillah.

next: revision for tesl method and statistic.

tesl method late tonight.

will be back here on thursday night.

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2012-01-02T00:37:00.003+08:00

yawny yawn!

done with 4 pages of statistical analysis Alhamdulillah. i am going to have a break for a short while having my ice-cream and we will see later if i am still awake to continue ;)

so for tomorrow basically i am just going to continue with my revision on statistic education. i am not sure if i can do well tomorrow since the loved ones (hubby, sis and sis-in-law) are planning to go to lowyat. should i go along? yeah i should and have made it clear with hubby that we would not be taking long.

or should i bring along my notes? oh i sound desperate i know.

*ya i need to email Dr. A tomorrow regarding my marks.

ok ice-cream time!

2012-01-01T16:51:00.003+08:00

happy 2012 :)

Alhamdulillah i managed to complete my article critique for testing & eva means i did more than 4 pages hikhik it is 5pages je pun and im done. unfortunately i can't proceed with my second part of final project of testing eva because i need to sit for discussion with the team first. i have just finished my first part for now.

so it's time for statistical analysis tonight. i guess i can do revision on statistic at the same time. insya Allah. so aim for tonight is to write 3 pages of analysis insya Allah.

i need to get some rest before getting started tonight. so how about cendol session this evening with the loved ones? ;)

2011-12-31T10:05:00.002+08:00

done with tesl method but need to proceed with revision.

no progress for testing & eva (due to some reasons).

to get done today (testing eva):
2 parts for final project
4 pages for article critique

should i have extra time before bed, i'll find articles for statistic.

insya Allah.

a helpful one

2011-12-29T16:51:00.001+08:00

thanks so much lyn!! lyn is one of my friend i knew since secondary school. now a mummy to a cutie adorable little boy named Qalif ( hope i spell it right) and a student of university college london as well, currently doing her phd. she was one of friends whom i asked for opinion and advice when i was about to further my master degree. and until today, she is still willing to share all her tips that make her the person she is today :)

i wish i could share the link of what she is currently doing here but ya, that is hers and i can't simply treat her work as mine la kan ;)

so here is my list:

final exam:
tesl method on 4 jan 2012 -done
statistics on 5 jan 2012 -done
linguistics app in tesl on 9 jan 2012

assignments:
statistics: data analysis (5 jan) -done
linguistics app: write up (9 jan) -done
testing & eva in tesl: 1) final project -done , 2) article critique -done. (6 jan)

for tonight i am going to work on:
tesl method notes
testing & eva surfing - at least i need to find one reading material

*perhaps i need to revise on my proper schedule to get all those things done on time. insya Allah.

i will update later ok.

*ops blom reply msg lyn on fb. ok one more to be added in the above list ;)

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satu semangat

2011-12-13T22:51:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah malam ni dapat markah assignment 1 and i am so happy. lagi2 subjek ni subjek yg plg menggerunkan i utk semester ni. harus lah ditulis di sini sebagai kenangan hehe,

dan paling penting, satu semangat. plss pray for me ya ;)

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Ombak Rindu

2011-12-10T18:57:00.001+08:00

watched ombak rindu last night with my cousin. hehehe. awal2 citer tu mcm stressful jgk la since i tak berapa berkenan ngn scene2 ala masalah sosial yg kian meningkat dewasa kini. tapi lama-kelamaan ok. the point is izzah mengambil langkah merayu nk berkahwin dgn hariz and the rest, yg betul tentu akan dibalas baik.

sweet la hariz ngn izzah dlm ombak rindu ni. terus terigt suami sendiri hehe (not saying that we both are sweet but i miss every moment having the loved one by my side gitu). haha aaron aziz banyak nangis dlm citer ni. maya karin plak so very ayu dgn watak gadis kampung. pakai tudung senget2 pun still nmpk cantik. and lisa surihani, rasanya sedikit terlebih dlm melakonkan watak bengis mila, tapi not so bad.

hey go watch, tpi nk tggu astro first pun ok. hikhikhik ;) oh yaaa. OST sgt best juga. kena dgn cerita ni and boleh membawa perasaan penonton sekali ke dlm cerita ni. in my opinion, cerita ni macam lagenda budak setan la. sangat2 disokong oleh OST yg meruntun hati, di samping jln cerita yg penuh emosi. again, it is a love story.

pd yg belum, selamat menonton ok ;)

anyway dh lama betul x masuk dapur masak. 2 weeks sudah kot hehe.

so this is my homemade breakfast after 2 weeks this morning. goreng telur je pun hehe kasi dapur berasap sikit. kira warm up la sebelum darling husband balik tak lama lagi.

yeayyyyyyyy. can't wait ;)

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pejam celik yg lama

2011-12-07T01:25:00.001+08:00

dah 2 minggu. ah tak sabarnya menanti kepulangan si dia.

bila difikirkan kembali, saat berjauhan ada juga indahnya walaupun kadang kala rindu itu menyakitkan dan mampu mengundang air mata.

berjauhan seolah-olah lebih mengeratkan. mana taknya, tiap saat hanya terbayang wajah dia. paling menarik, inilah perasaan ketika sebelum kawin dulu. kami sentiasa berjauhan dulu. lepas kawin juga terpaksa berjauhan atas tuntutan kerja. jadi, berjauhan seketika kini seakan mengimbau perasaan cinta jarak jauh dulu. syukur perasaannya masih sama malah bertambah indah - merindui seorang suami.

ku bersyukur atas nikmat ini ya Allah. semoga org2 disekeliling ku juga mengecapi kebahagiaan yg Engkau kurniakan. cukup utk bekalan meneruskan hidup. insya Allah.

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Tuesday Night

2011-11-29T22:31:00.001+08:00

i miss spending tuesday night with my loved one.
just by watching cinta elysa & edisi khas.

i am being specific tonight.
truth is i miss him always.

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Hmmmm

2011-11-25T23:25:00.001+08:00

rajin plak i update blog ni..hehehe..thanks blogpress :) Alhamdulillah mlm ni seakan2 mendapat satu semangat baru..semangat utk menjalani hidup seharian dan pembelajaran seperti biasa..rindu tetap rindu..hehe :)

i hope it is not wrong, but oh thanks alot inspiration. i'll not give up. 5 weeks to go insya Allah :)

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Oh

2011-11-24T11:13:00.001+08:00

seperti xpercaya saya menulis bait2 di bawah utk previous post mlm tadi. hehe semuanya secara spontan bila saya terlalu rindukan dia.

rindu saya terlalu banyak, tapi hidup juga mesti diteruskan.

senyum dan sabar lah.

apa kata mulakan dengan menyemak kembali to-do list?

:)

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aduh

2011-11-23T22:46:00.001+08:00

betapa ku rindu
terlalu merindu
hingga tiap detik
hanya terbayang wajahmu

kucoretkan kata ini
meredakan resah di hati
ku tunggu kepulanganmu
wahai sayangku

tenanglah tabahlah dikau
semoga sentiasa
dalam lindungan Ilahi

ku kan terus merindu

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Hi there :)

2011-11-15T10:53:00.002+08:00

how are you feeling today? i pray that everyone will have a beautiful day with your loved ones around, family and friends.

it is my brother-in-law's birthday today. the one who is married to my third sister, kak yah. happy birthday to him! deep inside my heart, i would be the happiest person to have him in our family as my sister's husband. i know that he has brought many happiness to my sister, be the best one he could ever be for my sister, and i just love to see them both together. he has been a good son to my mom as well, a good brother for us siblings and cousins, and he takes and does his responsibility to take care of the family.

the whole world should know how much i love kak yah. and i am so very thankful knowing the fact that there is someone who would love her more than i can do. i am just thankful.

her happiness means the whole world to me.

i read a quote from Best Quotes on FB;

"dear boys, be the type of man you would want your daughter/sister to be with.."

and it is true indeed.

i pray that both kak yah and abe le will always be blessed with all the happiness in the world, together with little ajmal, and more babies to come, insya Allah.

:)

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LoveyYummy

2011-11-13T23:36:00.001+08:00

apple is awesome.
kan best kalau ipad pun bleh jailbreak.
hehehe.

*thanks alot abg. muah!

Aman & Ani

2011-11-13T22:34:00.001+08:00

Testing apple 1 2 3

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lovely rainy day!

2011-11-12T09:07:00.001+08:00

we both are now at tmn tasik.

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A simple meaningful one

2011-11-02T10:47:00.016+08:00

A cake - in my case hubby came home from work to surprise me with a box of cake. it was still early at 7 pm when he reached home so he kept telling me not to open the box until 12. haha funny that he even wanted to take the cake to shower afraid that i might open and look. both of us were just kidding, well yeah i wanted to wait for the right time too.

A movie (optional) - while waiting for the exact time, you may watch any favorite movie at home with your loved one. it is not to kill the time, it is to enjoy each and every moment. in my case, we watched captain america! haha we are currently in love with action movie :) and yeah you can spend your lovely quality time any way you like with your loved one should you have extra more minutes/hours- it is a meaningful wait indeed.

A dress - oh celebrating at home will give you another advantage when you have to put no effort to dress up. at home at night, your sleep dress would be the best option. don't you think? :) ya, it is only you and your loved one!

A card - a birthday card is compulsory. write the sweetest words from your heart and it will be much appreciated. i smiled all my heart reading mine.

A gift - traditionally, we go survey and buy the present on our own, wrap it well and hope that he/she will like it. well, a hint can be a surprise too. make sudden conversation about it 2 or 3 days before the birthday and you can just simply say what you want to have for him/her, and later you can see the excitement on the face as well. i loved this kind of excitement!

And, when the clock shows 12am, celebrate it the most meaningful way your heart can do. it is just you and your loved one in your own world. no one else. a birthday song, hugs and kisses would make you feel just complete that you are the happiest person on your day.

the moment you always want to remember, it will be.

i'm in love with this one!

looking back, nothing much that i did for my husband's last birthday. yela, i kan tak keje konon2 hehehe ;) there was a card for sure, but i could not remember if there was a cake or present! oh apa lah saya ni. all i remember, he took us to dinner and movie on his birthday telling me the best gift and celebration is to be able to spend the whole day with me. oh that was much much simpler and more meaningful, kan?

happy wednesday

2011-11-02T08:46:00.003+08:00

"i have you in my present and my future,
together forever."

thank you sweetheart.

may this love grows stronger each day,
insya Allah.

farewell october ;)

2011-10-31T17:22:00.000+08:00

i am back from jusco wangsa maju. and guess what? i bumped into Ustaz Azhar Idrus and his family! well no further action taken. segan lah sikit kan ;) oh and today is 31 oct 2011 :)
today's class (31 oct 2011) has been canceled. dear lecturer is not feeling well but we need to work on an assignment given online and the question is oh so quite tough. i need explanation perhaps!
it is 31 oct 2011 today and that means i only have 2 months left for this semester. piles of works are still pending and i need to reschedule and reorganize everything. well i don't hope much this time, it is good enough if can get this semester done the best i can. i leave the rest to the Almighty.

1.11.10
*winkwink ;)

2011-10-25T09:51:00.000+08:00

hehe, nope lah. Insya Allah :)

anyway it is my mid-sem break now. 24.10.11 - 30.10.11.

& i keep reminding myself that i do have many pending tasks.

but yeah, it's a break. so work little!
-mm, nope lah. i am kidding :)
you all be rajin2 ok :)

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pernah

2011-10-18T16:46:00.000+08:00

dulu semester lepas..saya bgtau husband nk ponteng kelas..trus kena marah hehehe..ok2 saya main2 je masa tu..hehe so xjadi la ponteng walopun ade sedikit malas..

this time this semester sekali lagi saya bgtau nk ponteng..kali ni bersebab punya..sbb we both nak amik bas jumaat mlm balik kg..bas at 9.30 mlm and my class on friday night ends at 9 mlm..memandangkan a week before lecturer dah bagi kuiz and we understood that no assessment will be carried out for the following week..saya dgn konfidennya dan sedikit manjanya told my husband xnk attend kelas takut xsmpat kejar bas and he said OK..hehehee..yippieee..yippiee? no no no hehe..

masa tgh tggu bas tetiba dpt info dari my classmate telling that lecturer bagi take home test on lesson yg diajar mlm tu..ohhoooyyyy..menyesal den tak datang kelas..tobat xnak ponteng dh pasni hehehe..

have you read this post anyway? yup Alhamdulillah i have many supportive friends and one of them is Farrah. she sent me all the notes, put an effort to scan and send the questions and stayed online with me should i have any problem to understand the notes and questions. Alhamdulillah i managed to get it done..with her help..legaaaa..

huhu lepas ni xleh xattend kelas semudah itu..bahaya kan..gelabah i..tapi the good side is..saya rush giler catch up balik lecture hari tu..kalu xde assignment camtu agaknye bertangguh jgk nk study balik sbb assignment lain pun berlambak lagi..ok Alhamdulillah..

ok ujan dh benti now..n i want to stop writing too..tata :)

a little prayer to keep going

2011-10-10T10:08:00.000+08:00

"your schooling may be over,

but remember that your education will continue."

it is true indeed. but seeing happy people on their convocation day is like having a good supplement for myself. i want to be one! i pray that Allah gives me all strength throughout this long journey until the completion.

Graduation.
Amin ya Allah.

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FB-ing tip

2011-10-06T09:10:00.000+08:00

(for me especially)

The only reason that we keep logging on to FB is the nice and lovely friends that we have there, kan? Yup there are friends.

I remember spending my long long sem break at home alone while husband is out for work. Who else do i have? My online friends!

I sometimes got myself carried away with that best time killer but still, i have no regret. I got my house chores done and i still have like 25 hours to go until my husband is home? Oh hey, it's my friend there! Wee, FB could be my great company. Thank you lappy & 24hrs connection! I watch tv, and later i get back to FB. I read some materials, and later i get back to FB. I go out and later i get back to FB. The list goes on.

But not now anymore. I have started my new semester. So there should be some changes to my routine. As for now, i am going to remind myself of the top FB-ing tip:

Do not start your day with FB-ing.

And that's it. Simple enough so do fight hard to let go, ya?

FB is not a problem. In fact we meet and catch up with a lot of friends there. It is actually about user attitude towards FB, especially for a STUDENT like me!!!!

Ahhh tak sabar nak habis belajar haha :))

thankful

2011-09-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

that the happy heart is here with me now
:)

sigh

2011-09-26T10:43:00.000+08:00

yup that title should not be an opening i know but yup i am sigh-ing now.

sigh.

and again. i do have a list of task to do today before i leave for my evening class but the once-in-a-while gloomy heart of mine stops me to do those. until now that it's nearly 11.

i am unhappy now.
it is so dull in and out.

how i wish that i could turn back to Saturday, or Sunday,
to the moment that i met lovely people who only made me laugh and forget about being gloomy.

dear heart,
please be nice. you have always learned to accept things, to be rational, to be self-motivated, to cheer up. so why do this feeling keeps bothering? please. i may understand that you still have to adapt but please, do not take long ya? please sweetie sweetie heart of mine :))
now we get back to the list and we'll have our favorite mcFlurry later ya?

merenung sejenak

2011-09-20T16:41:00.000+08:00

dalam segala resah gelisah dan kurang keyakinan yg sekali sekala menerjah, saya terlepas pandang sesuatu yg positif utk saya coretkan di sini. benar, terlalu melihat yg hitam menyebabkan kita terlupa memandang yg putih.

'are..that was interesting..best tau..are mesti suke..'

salah satu galakan positif dari seorng rakan seperjuangan yg sama2 mengharung suka duka bergelar pelajar. dia yg selalu memberi respon positif sejak minggu lepas, iaitu minggu pertama semester baru ini. terima kasih kak :)

ya, dalam rasa gentar menyahut cabaran diri, saya sebenarnya tidak keseorangan. syukur kawan2 sekelas di UPM yg lain sentiasa memberi kata2 positif, dan mengalu2kan saya. mereka tahu latar belakang saya sebelum ini bukan dlm bidang TESL tapi mereka tidak membiarkan saya rasa ketinggalan/keseorangan.

terima kasih kawan. terima kasih.

'friends are like the flowers in the garden of life.'

kata salah seorang pensyarah saya,
'it is your choice to be here, right? so why complaining?'

bermula

2011-09-13T17:56:00.000+08:00

supaya mouse itu bergerak selesa, saya belikan sesuatu yg sedikit comel utknya. yeay dan saya juga selesa. semoga menyumbang keceriaan di sudut itu :)

dah bermula semester baru saya. cabaran semakin dirasa. namun saya perlu kuat dan saya doakan saya mampu. berbekalkan dorongan org2 tersayang, saya akan terus mencuba.

seseorg pernah berkata, 'you have to work double harder!'.
insya Allah.

12.9.11-15.1.12

being simple

2011-08-22T15:23:00.000+08:00

just collected my baju kurung from the tailor. i actually sent two turquoise but she only managed to finish one for me. that one.

sederhana & syukur.
Alhamdulillah.

there's no turning back

2011-08-17T09:14:00.000+08:00

life has been so beautiful ever since the childhood until now. i am thankful for that. but once in a while, deep inside me, there is one thing that i always regret about. only one thing, that i did not get myself exposed to the real interest that i wanted to do/learn at my early age. no i don't want to blame others. i should not even say it is unfortunate. well sometimes i wish i could turn back time but the path i have taken also brought a meaningful and priceless experience to me, taught me many precious things, offered me precious feelings that finally led me to what i am doing now. i still have to be thankful there.

however, knowing that i actually started zero in this field of learning now, i so wish that i had the opportunity to be in this field of study before, during my first degree. and i regret i feel that. i regret i lost the chance once.

it is now too late. i just have to move on and work hard. just because there is no way turning back. i just have to move on. fight the nervousness like i used to and give myself the best try. because i know, this is what my precious life experience wants me to learn. so i will learn.

all the best to me!

si manis karamel

2011-08-13T15:30:00.000+08:00

yeay..ni cubaan kedua sy buat kek karamel. not that good but this one was much better than cubaan pertama thn lepas yg terus je masuk ah tong sampah hehe. at least yg ni bleh masuk mulut hehe. ni kek karamel. sblm cuba buat, dulu penah makan kek karamel yg ditempah and memang sedap. then ada plak resepi and step nk buat kek ni kat facebook n blog, so i tried :)

cuma this time gula hangus tu agak gelap. adalah lebih cantik kalau kalernya lembut2 softlan saja. masalah masa wat gula hangus ni ialah api xsekata. so bhgn tgh cpt hangus dulu. a friend advised to goyang2kan loyang masa atas api so that gula hangus tu merebak sekata ke dasar loyang. guna api kecil ok n kena jaga :)

anyway hari ni sy buka puasa rumah my auntie moksu. so hari ni sy siapkan puding gula hangus saja. sebelum buat tu sy cuba usha if ada cara lain nk wat gula hangus utk dptkan hasil yg baik. lastly belek buku resepi hadiah dr ENGLIANS (hehe thanks alot guys!!) and dptla satu kaedah ni.

kaedahnya, panaskan/cairkan dulu gula dlm kuali-tidak-lekat. bila gula dh bertukar jd pekat, baru tuang dlm loyang. kemudian, goyang2kan loyang atas api supaya gula hangus tdi merebak sekata ke seluruh dasar loyang (ni i cuba sendiri sbb gula hangus tu kan leh beku kalu x panas, so susah nnti ).

anyway ni sukatan puding gula hangus sy tdi:

karamel:
3 sudu besar gula (kalu nk lbh bleh tmbh)
3 sudu besar air (supaya ada air la hehe, stgh org xletak pun)

puding:
6 biji telur
3 sudu besar gula
1 tin susu cair
1 sudu kecik esen vanila (supaya xbau hanyir telur)
1 sudu kecik tepung jagung dibancuh dulu ngn air

kaedah:
kukus

itu saja. makan sejuk2 best kan. hehe.
lepas ni nk cuba apam dot-dot. wish me luck :)

fresh one!

2011-07-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

percubaan kedua my bread butter pudding :) this time guna roti gardenia je sbb nk abiskan stok. before this guna croissant.

so this is our dinner haha smbil layan malaysia-singapore.

i'm so in the baking mood now. perhaps this is a great boost for me to attend informal baking class tomorrow with my dear friend. can't wait! ;)

next time i write the how ok :)

to ASNACUTE ;)

2011-06-30T19:23:00.000+08:00

hi asna,

first of all congrates!! u r now a mummy. selamat berpantang keh. masak2 kemudian ;)

nway lambat pulak are update pasal cili tumis life tu hehe. so far are cuba utk goreng bihun and masak sambal telur/bilis. personally utk bihun goreng ok kot sbb kite just letak sket utk tumis je kan. tapi kalu utk masak sambal, macam kureng sket la are rasa. bukan are pandai sgt hehe tapi sbb xdapat rasa yg kita nak/sepatutnya. kalu pandai adjust ok kot.

tapi kesimpulannya next time are xkan beli lagi kot. maybe next time just blend siap2 seniri bawang cili sume utk kegunaan masak.

oklah take care ok :)

yrs truly,
are

haduihh

2011-06-29T09:16:00.000+08:00

i thought that i have made myself clear not to think much about having that forever-admired lovely handbag, and in fact, i did muhasabah diri and kawal keinginan. but oh deep inside i can still hear that little voices screaming out eagerly to have one. huh sabar ok!! not for now. i have just grabbed another red one past few days which is none of the lovely kind i have wanted and to voice out about wanting to have other one a week later would only make my hubby pening2. too much kan? sabar ok sabar!!

sila simpan duit utk kegunaan masa depan yg masih terlalu banyak kepentingan lainnya. ok!!

ahh. it is just a handbag. sume pun samenyer punnn haduih!!

Life simplifies

2011-06-21T16:52:00.000+08:00

mom in law used to buy homemade cili tumis segera from terengganu for me. I admit that it helped me alot in the kitchen especially when i need to prepare for meal quick. It tastes good too. That was last year when i was still quite new to cooking as a routine that i need to cook often to brush up my skill.

And like i learn nothing, my cooking skill is still at average level and i am so in need of a booster to help me in the kitchen especially during rush hour in the morning. As i browsed through the shelf at Jusco, i found this 'Cili Tumis' a product of Life, that works the same as the previous mak bought me. Well i hope it tastes good too. Have you ever tried this?

I am planning to prepare mihun goreng for our breakfast tomorrow and will try this cili tumis. No 'kupas bawang' tomorrow yeah ;) Erm, i would always love to add 'daun sup' in my mihun goreng to give it a nice aroma and taste too.

Ok gtg now. Take care :)

2011-06-18T14:35:00.000+08:00

saturday started well.
we went to tasik titiwangsa.
breakfast.
headed back home.
simple facial treatment for husband.
he fell asleep.
and now i'm done cooking!

cooking.
i'm thinking of creating a cooking blog.
no im not that expert.
just to blog down my learning journey.
or perhaps to give me a good boost?

well ya, why not?

wordless?

2011-06-15T09:21:00.000+08:00

lovely little nephew

lovely sunday

2011-05-30T09:09:00.000+08:00

while waiting for the car serviced

suria park KLCC

yummy caramel almond at auntie anne

his new interest

searching and searching
the main reason why we were at KLCC

found!
and i just love kinokuniya
always

kuantan may 2011 part 2 :)

2011-05-26T09:18:00.000+08:00

muhammad hassan mustaqim @ baby aqim

her mom is my best buddy who took the first step together with me back at IKM. fiza, are and mas shared all happy and sad, good and bad, kept knowing each other, and we even planned our wedding at almost the same time. we were housemates :)

until 2010 and everyone walked into the new phase of life and we lived on our own, but the friendship is always there never change. so i was among the earliest to know the good news that fiza was going to have a little one soon after she got married.

and end 0f 2010, i made a move to KL and we just communicate online since then. thankful that we have mms and those network so i can always receive this photo of baby aqim. and i prayed that one day i will be able to meet him and hold him :)

as the family planned to celebrate kakak's convocation in kuantan, the next first thing came to my mind is to meet my good friends and the little ones of course. Alhamdulillah everything went well and we finally met at a restaurant in kuantan. the above photo was sent by mas approximately 30minutes before we met :)

and finally he was there in my arm. sad that baby mayra could not make it this time.

maybe next time ok mayra, muahh ;)

this was my best surprise of the day. to be able to meet those faces who had once cheered my life up, shared my ups and downs at work, friends whom i can always call the best colleagues in the world. see the kids in the photo? oh rasa mcm family day ok :) sangat happy!! :)

thank you thank you thank you.

thank you hubby for this lovely chance. love you mmuch :)

kuantan may 2011 part 1 :)

2011-05-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

mak & ayah

went to kuantan on 23rd may 2011 to celebrate kakak's (sis in law) convocation on 24 May 2011. Alhamdulillah she finally made it. the ceremony took place at Dewan Jubli Perak Teluk Chempedak.

isn't she lovely? yes she is. such a sweet pretty lady.

congratulation on your achievement my dear. never stop and keep going. insya Allah dipermudahkan segala urusan dan perjalanan hidup. we will always pray for you :)

the siblings; with myself as the spouse, while waiting for the ceremony to end :) another two were not in the photo as they were struggling for their exam in hometown. they know they are always in our heart.

no matter what we achieve, the most important is we know who we have to share the happiness.
blessing.

hey take a look!

2011-05-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

image googled

what does the picture tell you?
me? i can interpret it as flying colours ;)

Alhamdulillah.

lepas 16 mei ;)

2011-05-18T08:49:00.000+08:00

17 may already and it's husband's birthday!

happy birthday abg :)

i looked for a special birthday card for him.
a card that specifically for a husband,
the word 'husband' on the card is necessary hehe ;)

i browsed and found a white beautiful lovely card
that i wanted to consider.
the words inside sound quite romantic
and written in a wonderful way.
it looked so perfect.
it won my attention at first.

so i walked to the counter to pay for the card.

but spontaneously i turned back and went to the shelf again.
i browsed again and found another card.
i took a look and i myself finally smiled, like smiled happily.
it won my heart.
and i decided to have that :)

and we both laughed out once he opened :)

well, i did write a beautiful line for him as well.
one that i wrote from the bottom of my heart.

cepatlah 16 mei!

2011-05-09T10:04:00.000+08:00

selesai packing dan makan..pkul 6.45 ptg smalam..kami siap2 nk ke stesen lrt..

me: mane wallet abg?
hubby: sinih (smbil ltk tgn pada poket)
me: handphone abg?
hubby: sinih (sambil ltk tgn pada poket lagi satu)
me: by? (myself)
hubby: sinih (sambil letak tgn ke dadanya)

aahh i started to cry again at that moment and we immeadiately hug each other.

you will always stay in my heart too my dear.

it will be a long weekdays for me this week. luckily it is just one week this time and he will be back next monday.

camane la sblom ni saya bleh survive kat pekan jumpe husband hujung minggu je. seolah2 saya dh lupa semua tu dan bersedih bila husband nk ke lautan smalam. come on kena biasakan diri, ok. sgt solute pd isteri2 yg husband kena pergi rig/outstation lebih lama dari tu.

apepun, kita doakan saja kan semoga semuanya selamat di sana. selamat pergi, selamat melakukan tugas dgn baik, dan selamat pulang, insya Allah.

abg, by tggu abg balik.

Alhamdulillah

2011-05-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

6 mei kertas terakhir semester ni :)

apapun tetap berdebar selagi keputusan belum keluar.
mari doakan.

hi there,

2011-05-03T09:35:00.000+08:00

i so miss this blog
so this is just a 'drop by'
for a little while
to tell the whole world
the battle is now towards its the end
and i'll keep on counting
counting counting hard
in the middle of fight

sweet reminder

2011-04-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

for me! :)

oh i'm still struggling to finish all my task to be submitted end of this semester. reading articles is such a sweet pressure now since i need to add extra capacity in so limited time. oh this reading and writing should be enjoyable and meaningful as i manage to acquire more knowledge but not in this hurry.

i so can't wait to end this. not that i want to ignore those books and articles but at least i give a chance for myself to breathe right and fresh. in fact, i already have a few books and articles in my list to be read during my semester break. well, it will be a four-month semester break. yeah big smile :)

so, this is my sweet reminder. keep going keep going keep going and there will be an end. i am going to spend my day properly that time, treat myself good, have all the books/novels with me and enjoy my every reading.

so go go keep going!

dan tawakal

2011-04-13T09:07:00.000+08:00

berdoa dan bertawakal.

one thing i could never experience when i was at pekan is to smile and wave goodbye to my husband before he leaves for work, what more a hug and kiss!

but i have got the chance now, and always. it is such a meaningful moment to always spend our little quality time together in the morning and walk him to the door and pray for his best out there.

i wrote in my previous post how important it is to say a little prayer for husband's safety and happiness and success and good things to be with him.

and yup, when the loved one is off to somewhere and is out of our sight, all we can do is to pray to Allah and leave everything to Him for He knows best. insya Allah.

us both, on ramu's wedding
2010

bunuh diri

2011-04-11T09:17:00.000+08:00

mintak dijauhkan.

itu tajuk dalam salah satu slot MHI at TV3 pagi ni. kes bunuh diri yang makin menjadi2 and yg plg ramai terlibat adalah remaja yg putus cinta.

it is always easier said than done kan. memberi nasihat sgt mudah tapi berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu memikul. syukurlah kita xpernah diuji dengan perkara2 sebegini tapi bagi mereka yg melalui, hanya merekalah yg tahu perasaannya.

apapun, kita manusia dijadikan Allah saling memerlukan. apa kes sekali pun, bila kita berada dalam pertimbangan yg baik, sangat patut kita sentiasa berada di sisi insan yg memerlukan sekurang-kurangnya utk mendengar. bukan utk melabelkan diri kita sebagai yg terbaik dan tak pernah hadapi masalah, tapi hanya kerana kita berada dalam pertimbangan yg baik waktu itu. siapa tahu, mungkin di lain hari bila kita murung dan sedih, kurang pertimbangan, kita pulak yg perlukan teman dan bimbingan waktu tu kan?

being a teacher myself this sometimes happens to me in my real life. sgt menyedihkan tgk student sendiri bagai hilang nyawa bila putus cinta. nauzubillah.

dalam slot tadi, ada bingkisan temuramah terhadap remaja yg pernah cuba bunuh diri. let me share with you here.

sebenarnya apa yg diharapkan oleh kita semua adalah perhatian dan komunikasi. according to this chinese girl, the moment she opened her eyes at the hospital, she could only see her father crying. then she read a letter written by her father.

"everyone lives this life for reasons. if you are tired, you may just get rest. don't do something harmful to yourself".
dari kacamata non-muslim

and that words from her father has changed her perception about family and life. sebelum tu this chinese girl suka berkurung dlm bilik, bergaduh ngan parents especially mak kerana mak dirasakan tak memahami perasaan anak. asyik marah dan berleter. yelah, macamana mak nk faham kalau anak tak pernah cerita dan anak xkan cerita kalau mak tak beri peluang bercerita. kan? antara sesiapa sekali pun.

so lepas peristiwa tu, this chinese girl xbersendirian lagi. yang penting balik dari mana2, this girl akan kongsi/cerita apa yg berlaku pada dia hari tu pada family dan paling penting perasaan dia hari tu, sedih atau happy. and now she's doing fine with her life because she knows somebody cares for her. not one but more!

sgt xboleh ambil mudah kan. mendengar cerita2 yg mungkin kita anggap biasa bukanlah perkara kecil. kesannya besar apatah lg pada org yg kita sayang. so, dengarlah. tanyalah. enjoylah. cerita biasa ke tak biasa ke. communicate lah. jgn ambil mudah ok? peringatan utk saya dan kita semua. that is one way for a relationship to grow stronger kan :)

pernah saya post di status facebook;

"bila sesuatu yg kita ambil mudah adalah sangat bermakna bagi orang lain.."

cinta dan kasih sayang itu indah. cinta tak pernah buta. yg buta adalah mata hati yg menilai, bila cinta pada Allah dan rasul entah ke mana.

sebelum stop ni nk membebel sket. apa yg sesetengah org cari bila bercinta sebenarnya ek? fun? or to share happiness? hinggakan ada hati yg terluka sbb cinta nih.

nk cari yg cantik/handsome, mmg xkan habis. hari ni jumpe yg handsome, esok lusa ada lagi yg lebih handsome. so basically, what do these people seek for and why they do fall in love?

ya Allah, tetapkanlah dalam hati kami bahawa kebahagiaan itu adalah hanya dari-Mu. Engkaulah yg Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang.

ku bersyukur atas nikmat kasih sayang hari ni. sangat syukur.

take a break

2011-04-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

dulu2 zaman utm kalu terbeban ngn assignment, kopi o ais adalah kelegaan. now up skit; 3 layer tea or oreo McFlurry adalah kelegaan. seronok sungguh sekali sekala balik kelas then drive thru beli McFlurry satu then balik makan kat umah. selalu share ngan my husband tapi malam ni beliau ada lepaking session plak. so keseoranganlah saya menikmati McFlurry atas sofa empuk sambil meriba lappy juga mengadap tv.

lega. tadi presentation terakhir untuk semester ni. tinggal lagi 2 assignment nk kena struggle. final exam plak is just 2 weeks away. apepun, mlm ni nk rest minda dulu hehe menikmati kelegaan at least for now. lgpun mlm smlm my husband dh teman stay up so for tonight i promised him to go to bed early. mm, sepanjang study ni saya jarang sgt2 stay up tau. saya lebih prefer bgn pagi. rasa xbest je xmasuk tido ngn suami hahaha. rugi rasanya. saya sgt appreciate our time to bed. tapi kalu terpaksa sangat i'll inform my husband earlier and if he could, he would keep me accompanied. apa lagi, saya ngadap laptop, beliau ngadap ps3. tu yg rajin nk meneman tuh. hehe. tapi kalu my husband ngantuk tak larat, i relakan je beliau tido dulu ;)

oklah, done. see you next time keh. tata.

dinamakan perjalanan

2011-04-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

masihku igt perasaan itu, menyarungkan jubah, mortar-board, gementar dan gembira, satu perasaan yg sukar dimengertikan walaupun pd awalnya saya hanya suam2 kuku untuk menghadiri majlis itu. tapi mujurlah saya menghadirinya sbb kenangan dan perasaan itu tak akan diperoleh di mana2 dgn mudah.

masihkah kau ingat? ;)

to be frank, ni jelah gamba konvo yg saya ada. yang lain semua hilang entah ke mana, termasuk gambar kat atas stage bersama sultanah. tapi saya xdela kesal sangat. pelik.

sekarang sekali lagi saya berjuang. moga saya mampu mengulangi semula perasaan itu tapi dengan sedikit suasana yg berbeza. ya Allah, kuatkanlah hati hamba-Mu ini untuk meneruskan perjuangan ini sampai habis. Ku mohon semangat, kekuatan dan ketabahan dari-Mu ya Allah.

Berkatilah, rahmatilah.

doa isteri buat suami

2011-04-04T08:27:00.000+08:00

April 2011 genap 5 tahun my husband berjuang di medan pekerjaan, Alhamdulillah. Kira ulangtahun masuk kerja lani..dan masih di tempat yang sama.

Semoga abg akan sentiasa kuat dalam menempuhi apa saja cabaran, semoga segala urusan dipermudahkan, dikelilingi sahabat yang baik dan membina ke arah kebaikan, dan berada dalam rahmat dan lindungan Allah selalu. i know you can always do your best like you always did since school ;)

Igt pesan haji, 'bekerja mencari redha Allah..'. memang sangat ada benarnya kan. and pesan bos baru abg, 'work first..' igt masa kat office je tau ;) I think the first pesanan baik Haji is so much better. Insya Allah. Chaiyuk abg. Kerja rajin2 okeh :) utk kita jgk, hikhik ;)

Doa isteri buat suami adalah sangat penting kan. Doakan suami setiap hari untuk kejayaan suami. Insya Allah semoga suami tersayang sentiasa berada dalam redha dan lindungan Allah. Ingin saya kongsikan sedikit di sini, apa yg saya dah baca :)

HR Tirmidzi : “Tiada satupun yang lebih mulia bagi Allah melainkan do'a”.

Do’a adalah senjata, do’a adalah bukti begitu kecilnya kita sebagai hamba.
Tidak pantas kita menyombongkan diri karena hanya kepada Allah sajalah
kita memohon pertolongan dan perlindungan.
Apalagi do’a seorang istri kepada suami, seperti kisah Nabi Ayub as.
Ia diuji dengan bencana yang menimpa fisiknya.
Tubuhnya tidak menyisakan satu lobang jarumpun yang sehat.
Tidak ada sesuatupun di dunia ini yang dapat menolongnya, selain istrinya yang
tetap memelihara cintanya karena Allah.
Istrinya selalu melayaninya dan selalu mendo’akan sang suami untuk kesembuhannya,
maka Allah mengabulkan do’anya, memperkenankan permohonannya.
Lalu Allah memerintahkan Nabi Ayub untuk bangkit dan menjejakkan kakinya ke tanah
dan Allah mengeluarkan mata air dari dalam tanah dan menyuruhnya mandi dengan air itu.
Lalu, Allah menghilangkan seluruh penyakit yang ada di tubuhnya.
Itulah buah dari do’a istri yang sholehah.
Do’a Perempuan lebih makbul daripada lelaki karena sifat penyayang yang lebih kuat
daripada lelaki, ketika ditanya kepada Rasulullah akan hal tersebut, jawab Baginda,
“Ibu lebih penyayang dari pada Bapa, dan do’a orang yang penyayang tidak akan sia-sia”.

Sentiasa doakan suami ya?
Agar suami selamat dlm perjalanan pergi dan balik kerja.
Agar segala urusan suami dipermudahkan.
Agar suami sentiasa cekal dan tabah.
Agar suami sentiasa dalam lindungan dan kasih sayang Allah.
Agar suami sentiasa berjaya.

Juga,
Agar suami sentiasa melindungi, menyayangi, mengasihi dan mencintai isteri ke akhir hayat.

Kerana suamilah orang yang kita kongsikan hidup. Yang sentiasa kita cinta. Yang sentiasa kita hormati. Yang sentiasa kita harap. Yang satu dalam hidup.

SUAMI..

hi april

2011-04-01T08:25:00.001+08:00

mmm. i love this smile the most. bleh? hehe. knowing that i can actually smile this sweet and sincere and happy. i hope this can be an encouragement for me through my ups and downs.

anyway this photo was taken many years back when i was still studying at utm (zaman itu kulit adalah masih selamat dan tidak seperti sekarang hehe) and husband was studying at utp. hikhik. he visited me during weekend and we went out for dinner and this was at Anjung Warisan, JB. A beautiful place. A beautiful memory too.

I admit, we always need to cherish the good memories to be thankful for what we had have and appreciate the present and for us to struggle for future and lifetime happiness. Why struggle? because life involves emotion.

I'm not going to elaborate more on this but in cure of what i have been going through these 2 days, i found this from my reading;

"Emotional intelligence is not about smiling all the time.

It's about celebrating success, RECOGNIZING THE JOY AND THE PAINS OF OTHERS, it's about being angry at the right person at the right time in the right manner for the right reasons, it's about the authentic use of emotions."
(source)

Those in capital letter had won my attention the most. On the other view, it's damn hard for us to control of what other people would say/do that will harm us. But one best thing we can do for ourselves is to protect our heart from getting hurt and we will know how.

Have a good day everyone.

Thank you, husband. i love you so much!

sedihnya

2011-03-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

sedih sangat2. dan tension sangat2. terhadap 2 benda. tapi hanya satu yg saya boleh luahkan di sini utk ringankan rasa ni.

sedihnya saya tak bersedia utk presentation 3 minit utk kelas hari isnin. saya hanya ckp ttg apa yg dh sedia ada dlm otak melalui pembacaan lepas. not a proper one. i was not well-prepared. sangat frustrated. Dr. S ada expection yg tinggi terhadap studentnya. Dr. S jgk bkn calang2 profesor. Tiba-tiba saya rasa saya xmampu perform utk semester ni. walaupun ni hanya salah satu presentation tp saya rasa kecewa sgt.

ya Allah sedihnya mlm ni. i so need someone to talk to.

ya Allah.

sedih :(

kucuba gagahi jua. sambil nangis pun takpelah.

ni pas balik dari kelas Dr. S. tension tapi ter-rawat seketika. walo apepun perasaan saya skang, deep inside my heart i miss this moment.

my good listeners.

2011-03-26T16:35:00.000+08:00

cantiknya purple bedroom! :) but not really the second one kan. or anyone would prefer black for a comfy bedroom?

hihi no lah im not going to talk about bedroom deco. ni saja2 cuci mata kat google. this is also one kind of therapy. you see good things, beautiful stuff, the creative ideas, it's a good way to take a break after a long surfing and reading in front of the lappy. kan? :)

currently im reading on malaysian curriculum for one of my subjects this semester. i found a great difference in learning style between the time of undergrad studies and postgrad, and this is my personal opinion. my undergrad days adalah salin dan hafal. sangat exam-oriented. but now i'm happy to realize that we can't just actually depend on one single book but the most importantly is to be able to grab other related information and current issues to be applied in our reading. that is so much better. read and think. and i'm so thankful for the teaching experience i had from primary level up to tertiary (if i can say the one with MARA is tertiary). it means a lot to me :)

seems like everything is good for this semester except for the unfinished assignments (hihi bila nk siap nih). but i'm so afraid that i am going to take the literature thing for next semester and swear i totally have no idea how am i going to catch up. my former KU at previous workplace used to remind me that i really need to work harder than others esp those who are already in this field during their first degree. i admit that. thank you kak iza! i'll figure out what to do during this sem break insya Allah.

yup sem break is just a month away. how time flies. so much actually need my attention but sometimes ignoring the workload is such a sweet antidote. hehe.

so let's movie tonight. merong mahawangsa jom? hehe ya saya ketinggalan sedikit.

Cemerlang Kelihatan Ramai

2011-03-24T09:45:00.000+08:00

"PUTRAJAYA: Seramai 10,488 calon sekolah Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia (KPM) dan Maktab Rendah Sains Mara (MRSM) berjaya mendapat keputusan gred cemerlang (A+,A dan A-) dalam semua mata pelajaran yang diambil dalam peperiksaan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) 2010".
(sumber Berita Harian)

secara positifnya, ini adalah satu kebanggaan. ya, cuba lihat secara positif dahulu. betapa ramainya bilangan yg mendapat gred cemerlang sehinggakan satu sistem penggredan baru (mulai 2009) diperkenalkan untuk mengecilkan lagi skop cemerlang untuk digunapakai ke kemasukan IPTA/IPTS atau kelayakan mendapat tajaan atau biasiswa. Suka atau tidak, mahu atau tidak mahu, inilah yang harus kita terima especially bagi calon-calon SPM. Inilah tiket, inilah pengukuran. Kalau saya berada di tempat pihak2 yang memilih untuk kelayakan yang saya sebut tadi, mau pening kepala saya memilih. Hehe. Kita sebagai pihak pelaksana hanya boleh berusaha yg terbaik. Nak kondem boleh, tapi kena sediakan lah sekali CADANGAN method yang lebih baik, kan? Trust me, being in education field memang sangat mencabar. I know that! Ni tak masuk isu kualiti lagi, isu disiplin lagi.

Ok, meh nak cerita sikit berkenaan sistem penggredan. Ni saya tampal table yg saya ambil dari Haslina.

Gred Lama	Gred Baru	Markah	Nilai GPK	Nilai PNG	Tahap
1A	A+	90 – 100	1	4.0	CEMERLANG TERTINGGI
1A	A	80 – 89	1	3.75	CEMERLANG TINGGI
2A	A-	70 -79	2	3.50	CEMERLANG
3B	B+	65 – 69	3	3.25	KEPUJIAN TERTINGGI
4B	B	60 – 64	4	3.00	KEPUJIAN TINGGI
5C	C+	55 – 59	5	2.75	KEPUJIAN ATAS
6C	C	50 – 54	6	2.50	KEPUJIAN
7D	D	45 – 49	7	2.25	LULUS ATAS
8E	E	40 – 44	8	2.00	LULUS
9G	G	0 – 39	9	1.75	GAGAL

or you can refer to this Pekeliling.

bila saya baca blog2 or forum or comments org awam, ramai yg timbulkan sisi negatif pasal pendidikan Malaysia skarang.

'Eleh, A je banyak..tapi last2 ntah ke mana jgk..'

'Eiii buat ape la tukar2 sistem..nk dapat A pun susah..'

dan macam2 lagi yg saya rasa xperlu la saya ketengahkan kat sini. Itulah persepsi. Tepuk dada tanya selera. Nk positif atau negatif. Saya sendiri ada pengalaman berharga tentang pentingnya mengubah persepsi. Maybe next time saya cerita.

Benar, kejayaan seseorang bukan diukur pada bilangan A sahaja. Malah dalam Falsafah Pendidikan Malaysia pun dah terang2 cakap psl matlamat nk develop potensi individu, nk melahirkan individu yg balance intellectually, emotionally, physically dan spiritually. Yang penting nilai-nilai murni dalam hidup yang boleh dibawa sampai mati. Tapi inilah tiket untuk menentukan hala tuju pelajar seterusnya. The world keeps on changing. So, persepsi sgt penting for me. Perception can change emotion. Nk melahirkan citizen macam ni bukanlah 100% tugas cikgu-cikgi/educator sahaja. Komuniti pun perlu bagi support. Dalam komuniti tulah ada golongan ibu, bapa, keluarga seseorang pelajar kan?

So, chaiyok semua! :) All The Best!!!

i love being naughty with you

2011-03-22T09:58:00.000+08:00

Dalam banyak2 gamba kahwin, saya paling suka tatap yang dua ni :)
Each tells smile and laughter and happiness. Alhamdulillah syukran ya Allah.

3 things that i cherish most in our life:

pillow-talk
sebelum, semasa dan selepas solat berjemaah - even selalu delay 2 3 minit walaupun dah sedia pakai telekung dan bentang sejadah. why delay? us being so 'naughty' ;)
saya terharu sangat setiap kali suami saya turun bawah dan sambut saya balik dari kelas waktu malam. terima kasih sayang!

cukup 3 diabadikan di sini, for me. and i believe that each and everyone of us have our own sweet moments to always be remembered, to look back, to think of, at least to keep us feel 'accompanied', always for sure or at anytime we need to or feel like.

Me sitting alone now in our utility room on this rainy day, it makes me smile thinking of those above 3 of mine (us). i can't wait to have him home this evening.

oh dear husband, i just love being naughty with you.

ok! jgn senyum sorang2 lama sangat. assignment masih banyak dan exam juga sudah tidak lama lagi.

have a happy day semua and wish me luck!

siti nor's reception

2011-03-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

hi, that is my wedding portrait with the farisians. they really made my day :)
and oh it was a year ago in 2010, on 13th feb to be exact. what a lovely day.
kly, jeda, siti nor, fatin, rodz & apis, peje, jamar, cik ann, paka, amin & aza, yusran and hasif.

another lovely purple wedding that i attended today. reception of siti nor & hafies on 19 march 2011. and we the farisian were able to meet up again, to capture another sweet moment celebrating our friend's love day.

gamba JMR tp xmintak izin hihi
(cik zal, jeda, cik ann, mc anie, aza, me, nunu, pok jat's wife, pok jat, jamar, juzle, my husband, amin)

congratulation nor and husband. i pray that both of you bahagia sokmo and cepat-cepat dapat cahaya mata insya Allah.

the girls, sebelum zal and ain sampai.

gamba JMR tp xmintak izin jgk hihi

us and ain the mummy-to-be :)

among all, i truly admire this last photo. just so very nice. both have the same look and smile. and they look perfect, siti nor and cik ann :)

wedding is beautiful.

credit to cik ann and JMR for these photos :)

coklat merah

2011-03-15T09:20:00.000+08:00

Close friends and who ever reading my previous entry may know that before this my husband and i stayed apart from each other. I was at Pekan, he is in KL and we only meet during weekend and holidays. So, we have Pekan home and KL home during that days.

I knew that my husband and I will eventually live together one day like we manage now but as a woman i just could not stand the emptiness or dullness of that Pekan home what more to stay alone during weekdays. I need some colour to cheer my day up. I mean many ladies will do this kan? Contohnya go to kedai perabot weekly for cuci mata and at the same time aiming for something that you would like to have. I did this during my Pekan days, hehe.

So, i ended up buying set of dining table and a few small shelves. Good that i managed to remind myself not to over spend on perabot thingy because later i will move to KL.

Then i realized that Pekan and KL home actually have different theme. Pekan home came out with brown theme and my husband actually prefers red colour for KL home in the very first place. Hehe. Why did not I stick to red for Pekan home as well? It is because the wall was painted light creamy yellow. Hehe.

December 2010, it was the time for me to move to KL. I can never imagine how can red work well with brown before this but this time i just have to believe my eyes, just because we actually have no option. Not bad kot hehe. Here take a look.

Ok, the last picture is like apple analogy. The red skin actually mix well with its turned brown isi kan? ;)

Well, in order for those furniture to mix good, I added some red+brown element to it for example the carpet, alas meja makan, and also the red cushion for the dining chair.

Ok tak ok tak? Sila sedapkan hati saya ;)

Yup not bad for us at all. This rare combination actually makes me love our little space even more. I am not bored so far.

Tapi next time we need to carefully plan our home sweet home la kan.

Luckily this combination works well together this time and we love it.

nyawa lebih berharga

2011-03-14T08:18:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since our last movie, say a month? So last night we went to catch 127 hours at WangsaWalk TGV. Thankfully it is just 15mins away from home and we can normally go purchase our ticket way earlier, come back home for routine and head again to cinema 20 minutes before the showing time.

I insisted to watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa at first but the ticket i mean at our preferable time was already sold out. So 127 hours is the next option and it was not bad at all.

This is James Franco and guess what he is doing for that approximately 127 hours? Oh the climax is so mencabut jantung i tell you. Nasib baik couple seat and i just looked at the screen through my fingers. But then it made me realize that this kind of enthusiastic man appreciates his life more than anything walaupun takde ****** but what matters is life must go on. And yeah, please leave a message for your loved one whenever you are going out somewhere for anything happen in case, because we can actually never live this world alone. We may need even a little help, who knows.

This film is actually based on true story of Aron Ralston who is a climber and went out hiking in Blue John Canyon, Utah, trapped alone for almost 5 days and finally survived. A nice one to watch except the darah2 part hehe, unbelievable for me at first.

Anyway we are still planning for Merong Mahawangsa tho. Pagi2 lg Anuar Zain dh nyanyi lagu 'Sedetik Lebih' oh sgt memanggil. i know MM is another kind of Alice-in-Wonderland-vs-Magika but why not supporting? hehe. JMR's review is quite convincing too. Can't wait!

Now i need to struggle for my test first. The test will be on friday so wish me luck.

2011-03-12T08:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY & MOTIVATED

those are the best feeling ever.
contrary to my previous post,
i enjoy being extra happy and motivated now
and for the past few days actually.
i just could not tell the reason why,
i just don't know.
but good thing is we need no reason to be happy, right?
so Alhamdulillah for this feeling
that at least for now.

well, this is an impact from my previous post perhaps.
be thankful, God will give you more
in a way that you can never imagine.
so i pray to always stay strong and focused
because i just love to feel the peaceful way i feel now.
syukran.

hi people,
do SMILE :)

image googled

2011-03-09T09:45:00.000+08:00

i actually almost cry this morning but thankfully the past apparently taught me to be strong. it was just few little drops during my subuh prayer and i then smiled strong and happy again accepting the fact. it was just the same feeling i was confronting last year but this time with greater strength.

i keep on moving. living my life good. enjoying whatever life brings. struggling to do what i am struggling for now. loving the one by my side.

i am thankful.

just 'i'

inspired by the newly-wed

2011-02-18T08:51:00.000+08:00

plan-your-marriage-pray-together by the newly-wed is such a sweet reminder for me.

and i just love the quote;

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, and always with the same person." - Mignon McLaughlin

i have been falling in love with the same person for so many times. and i hope it works.

love needs to work.

2011

2011-01-11T08:05:00.000+08:00

now n still no latest post? hehe i just prefer blog-walking rather than write my talk. mestila kan. baca blog org bleh senyum2 gelak2 feeling2 sweet tgk gamba org. yup i smile when i read most of happy entries from other bloggers and it's a good feeling i tell you.

and good that i'm happy with the path i'm taking now too. Alhamdulillah. i have started my first sem last week and everything went smooth so far Alhamdulillah. i found that i have registered the right courses for the first sem, met some good friends to work with and be friend with, got to know few good lecturers who later become an inspiration towards the accomplishment of what i'm doing now and mostly i found that i fall in love with my husband more and more each day;)

hehe tetiba je kan masuk hal bercinta. 'nasib baik' dah ade pengalaman belajar smbil bercinta dulu haha. to tell u the truth, i sometimes think of my husband while the lecturer is discussing on an issue hehe sempat! and i would love to see this positive because he is my greatest inspiration kan. however this time is a little bit different i guess. i'm doing my study full time now but still i have to manage my time well because now i have another responsibility at home and syukur Alhamdulillah that husband is a very understanding and supportive man.

yup SYUKUR. we just have to be thankful for anything offered in our life kan. whatever comes whatever happens. everything is for good reason. bila kita syukur, we will appreciate more kan. in my case i btul2 kena disiplinkan diri n organize myself well dlm bab2 blaja nih. i'll do good insya Allah. not only for me but for my husband as well, for every sacrifice we have made, for many love that we have for each other.

well, 2 things that always cross my mind. reading and cooking. reading i mean on big issue is a must n cooking? so far i bleh masak apa yg i mmg dh tau masak. nk refer2 buku n surf2 resepi ni still not manage to do that lah. need to find masa actually ni kan. hihi.

so it's time to continue the kerja rumah now, pegi pasar jap and then balik pulun asemen. hehe sounds interesting interesting interesting interesting! (cubaan mempositifkan diri) ;) anyone with same experience would love to share? or any advice? mari mari mari!! :)

purple with love

2010-11-30T11:55:00.000+08:00

hubby and i attended a reception of butet & najwa last sunday and i was so amazed with the beautiful purple wedding that made me fall in love with purple even deeper. it was actually the groom's side and butet is my husband's good friend. i never expect that a man would choose purple for a wedding but this guy did. hahaha i was sooooo happy. my close friends know how much i love purple :)

the reception is one of the best. the food, the decor, the bride, all are gorgeous. the solemnization and the bride's side reception must be great too im sure. im wishing them a happy marriage insya Allah.

wedding thing is beautiful right?i myself would love to surf on wedding videos and photos by others. they are just soooo lovely. and i pray that each marriage would be as lovely as that forever. and same goes to mine. insya Allah :)

pindah, belajar

2010-11-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

selain daripada keje2 terakhir di pejabat, itulah 2 perkara yg bermain di fikiran saya skarang. insya Allah my last day kat office will be on friday 10.12.10 dan insya Allah on sunday 12.12.10 saya akan move to KL. semoga dipermudahkan ya Allah.

and you know what? it is like we are starting all new again. yup we have been married for 9 months but we are long-distance husband and wife who meet only on weekend, or if we are lucky, we manage to spend more days for public holiday. Alhamdulillah now we get to make a better (insya Allah) change for our marriage and future and i am so thankful to my husband for his support and courage to lead our life to a better path.

so now, i can't stop thinking or imagining of how our future life would be. i think on how to rearrange our furnitures, how to get all our stuff at pekan transfered to our home in KL, and in a few minutes later i can start thinking of going to class on my own, the assessments, the assignments, bla bla bla that i could not put clearly on list, well i actually dont have to. maybe i am too excited that i forget that insya Allah things will be good when the time comes. insya Allah. i am going to have my husband by my side all the way and everything will be fine then (of course with doa).

oh it's 11 pm now and i still need to make a progress on my packing project and need to prepare the form for medical check up. so, till then. do pray for me ya?

tips letak

2010-11-08T12:33:00.000+08:00

jawatan.

eh bukan. tips utk tulis surat letak jawatan. mesti mengandungi 3 perkara berikut:

tarikh terakhir kerja/tempoh notis
sebab mengapa berhenti
aspek positif semasa bekerja dgn majikan sekarang dan doa maju jaya

mine is ready. and i'm going to make a move. please pray for our best k.

by Lao Tzu

2010-10-25T08:44:00.000+08:00

"being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage"

we have made the decision

2010-10-18T14:39:00.000+08:00

but i will write about it later
we both are working on it now

ya Allah
rahmatilah
lindungilah
seluruh perjalanan kami

hanya pada-Mu ya Allah

kill the time

2010-10-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

i am so not into writing these days. nothing to write about because i do prefer to keep worrying about a few things now. writing never seems to be the best therapy this time. sad.

well, the good thing is i still manage to entertain myself with some activities that really help me kill the time. beading is my new addiction now. i would rush back home after work just to work with my little beads having nobody to stop me except the backache after hours. the beading doesn't have to be grand. just a simple and sweet one would make myself happy.

and i start baking too. i started with chocolate cake inspired by mom in law. so i search for other cake to try and caramel cake looks good. let's give a try yeah?

well yup writing did not help much this time. pen off.

2010-09-22T09:50:00.000+08:00

i read my previous blog and found this entry

My Love Story:10 of many

Saturday, March 10th, 2007

1) at pizza, he passed me his wallet asking me to pay the bill at counter.

2) wanted to have fresh orange for breakfast, but no parking. i volunteered to buy. i was about to get out from the car when he asked. "ade duit?"

3) she: aman, pedasla..

he: meh aman makae..

4) did a little shopping to buy birthday present for mak. our eyes stuck on something nice which we decided to buy. he suddenly opened his wallet telling me, "jap, tgk duit cukup tak.."

5) he complained his back to me.

6) i will automatically hit the channel that he is watching at the time, right after receiving his msg of any excitement show on TV. i will watch even for short. even bola.

7) he kept me informed of any movie on TV in which my interest, via msg. so that i could watch as well.

we meet each other so very seldom. once we met, there’ll be no fighting, even a tragic waiting happened before the meeting.

9) there will be two feelings in one meeting; i’ll be very2 happy at the very moment our eyes met, and it turned sad when we had to make our very own move at the end of the day.

10) he is the only friend, the only boyfriend, the only man in my own world, since the day one i learnt about LOVE, until now. so tell me, how am i going to wake up without seeing him flying in my head every morning everyday??

2010-08-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

selamat menyambut ramadhan Al-Mubarak :)

betapa saya rindu suami saya sekarang.
dia yg selalu buat saya ketawa.
yg selalu menyayangi.
yg selalu mencintai.
yg selalu memahami.

kadang-kadang,
kami ibarat sahabat paling karib zaman kanak-kanak.
saya suka begitu :)

saya ingin ingat saat bahagia ini sentiasa.
kerana bahagia seperti inilah yg saya sentiasa mahu,
buat kami berdua.

suami saya pesan,
kita mesti selalu berdoa,
demi kebahagiaan ini.
insya Allah.

Alhamdulillah,
Ramadhan ini satu lagi kesempatan.
moga Allah sentiasa merahmati.

2010-07-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

sama-sama

2010-07-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

hujan renyai-renyai di luar sana. mujur saya tapau kopi o panas sblm naik ke office tadi. dlm suasana macam ni, saya tidak berminat melakukan tugasan lain. lantas saya duduk menekan-nekan keyboard mencari sesuatu yg menarik utk dibaca. saya ke yahoo mail. oh bagusnya, saya mendapat email drd suami tersayang yg ingin berkongsi artikel. tajuknya? haha. 'hukum isteri meleteri suami' :) terfikir saya seketika pernahkah saya meleteri suami saya. haha leter2 manja mungkin.

ok jom nk share. saya quote sket je keh :)

ia ttg suami isteri sama2 keluar bekerja (SAMA-SAMA ok!) tapi balik umah isteri je yg kena buat semua keje rumah. kalu isteri dah penat of course emosi lebih haruslah berleter. kita kan kaum yg kaya dengan emosi. hamba Allah yg lemah pulak tu :) hmm tapi utk saya, memandangkan kami suami isteri hanya jumpa pd hujung minggu, saya tak pernah terkejar2 mengurus kerja rumah sebaik pulang dr kerja. belum merasa huhu. tapi Alhamdulillah, hujung minggu pun suami saya byk membantu. thanks so much to him.

saya pasti sgt2 setiap isteri akan seronok sgt buat kerja rumah kalau tak rasa keseorangan. penat mmglah, tapi kalau mengingatkan suami yg baik hati, isteri pun jadi sejuk hati kan?

dan, dgn melihat perkahwinan sbg medan utk mengumpul bekalan ke akhirat sana, insyaAllah kita boleh bersabar melakukan tugas harian. insya Allah, peringatan seperti inilah yg kita perlukan dari masa ke masa utk meneruskan hidup dgn baik. saya pernah terbaca, 'jika setiap suami isteri bersaing sengit utk mengumpul pahala ke akhirat kelak melalui perkahwinan mereka, tentu tiada derita dlm rumahtangga-itulah hikmah perkahwinan'. Subhanallah. semoga kita semua memperoleh kekuatan itu.

Ini pun saya petik dr email suami saya tu;

'bagi kaum wanita & lelaki yg sudah berumah-tangga, marilah sama-sama belajar saling tolong-menolong meringankan beban pasangan kita'.

bak kata wonderpet, apa yg pentingg, kerjaaasamaaa. hehe. dulu pun lepas kawin nenek saya selalu sgt pesan, 'ppakat molek la..' dgn erti kata, bermuafakatlah sesama suami isteri. rumahtangga sendiri kan. setiap perkara boleh bwk berbincang tapi kdg2 komunikasi plak yg jd masalah. suami isteri haruslah bulih kecek-kiro kan? ;)

cinta, sayang, simpati, belas kasihan, memberi, menerima, memahami, komunikasi. that's when two becomes one kan.

Islam pun ada garis panduan kan. banyaknya kena belajar.

2010-06-30T12:12:00.000+08:00

syukur ya Allah
atas segala rahmat dan kasih sayang-Mu
syukur ya Allah
atas kebahagiaan yang Engkau limpahkan buat kami
syukur ya Allah
atas segala rezeki yang Engkau kurniakan

ya Allah
sesungguhnya rahmat-Mu melangit luas
sehingga ujian dan kesulitan yang kami hadapi
kelihatan terlalu kecil

namun ya Allah
sebagai hamba yang lemah dan lalai
kami tetap memohon pada-Mu
agar dikurniakan kekuatan utk terus melayari kehidupan ini
utk menepis saat-saat gusar
yang kekadang menguji hamba-Mu ini

kami memohon ya Allah
berikanlah kami kekuatan
eratkanlah ikatan kami
satukanlah hati kami
jadikanlah kami orang-orang yang sabar
dlm menjalani kehidupan di dunia-Mu ini

ya Allah ya Rahman ya Rahim

pemanduan sebuah perjalanan

2010-06-17T11:00:00.001+08:00

ada pemandu
sangat yakin dgn laluannya
memandu ibarat dilitar
potong sana potong sini
ada satu destinasi yg dikejar
atau sekadar melepas geram
atau mmg jenis darah panas tak peduli org lain

ada pemandu
tak yakin berada dilaluannya
memandu perlahan sekadar ditepi jalan
takut
baru belajar

ada pemandu
memilih memandu perlahan
memandu di tepi dgn tujuan memberi laluan kpd org lain

ada pemandu
konsisten dan sederhana pemanduannya
dia yakin dan berada di laluannya
sekadar selesa dan tenang di laluannya

pemandu-pemandu ini
mungkin berubah pemanduannya
mengikut destinasi dan perjalanan
yg tertulis utknya pd ketika itu

hari ni
saya sekadar jadi pemandu
yg perlahan dan konsisten
malah saya lebih gembira jika lampu merah di hadapan
tenang dan relax
kerana itulah keperluan utk perjalanan saya
ketika ini

dan
saya tetap berada di laluan saya

it was a happy moment

2010-06-10T09:03:00.000+08:00

4June2010
akad nikah

5 June 2010
peach reception

hehe..still dpt ucapan 'selamat pengantin baru' and jumpe tetamu2 yg tak sempat jumpe hari tu..soalan default utk saya spnjang hari tu : 'dh ade isi ke blom?'..saya pon masih tggu :)

personally saya suka gambar ni..lawaKING of the family..they made a good team..sempat men futsal waktu mlm lepas majlis dgn cousin2 lain..i'm happy to see them together..walaupon at first saya rasa renggang ngn suami saya (perasaan karut)..tapi biasa lah bile dh kumpul ramai2..masing2 ade keje byk tuk kenduri..penat lagi..dan pd sesetengah perkara..men and women lain agendanya..hehe..saya dh faham tu :)

wedding kakak saya hari tu mmg sgt2 memorable..bilalah dpt berkumpul ramai2 lagi..raya pon belum tentu kot..sbb masing2 kebanyakannya dh kawen..ade 2 side family..apepon semoga ikatan kekeluargaan ini erat selamanya..dlm limpahan kasih sayang dan rahmat Allah insya ALLAH :)

now i'm in KL..amik cuti Khamis & Jumaat..rehat dan rawat dan rindu

*more photo here

2010-06-08T11:39:00.000+08:00

pertama kali dlm hidup
dekat tapi terasa jauh
renggang

sedih
semakin sensitif
mudah menangis
seperti bersendirian

jauh atau dekat
saya mahu rasa dekat
seperti selalu

saya perlu cuti

pure & shine

2010-05-31T19:42:00.000+08:00

1) cantik kan jam di atas? kan kan kan? :) :) :)

2) saya & husband akan cuti bermula khamis ni tuk balik kampung. hari selasa baru masuk ofis. kakak saya kawen. soooo can't wait. there'll be a big gathering on the love day. raikan cinta. kisah cinta kakak saya. Alhamdulillah akhirnya kakak saya bertemu dgn seseorg yg btul2 komited terhadap cinta, the man who wins :)

3) nanti saya akan jadi pengantin lama dlm keluarga. tapi saya tak kisah. itu tak ubah apa2. saya tetap gembira utk diri saya. saya tetap cinta, makin cinta :)

nota utk suamiku

2010-05-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

just imagine that i'm the one who sings the song (pls ignore the sumbang-ness hihi) 'ku ada kamu' (andai hari esok lalalalala..)..(i hope) u'll eventually like the song..bcos it's actually a meaningful lyric..so next time..whenever wherever..sudikan dgr smpai habis lala ;)

Di kala ku kehilangan di dalam kegelapan,
Kau suluhkan sinar petunjuk,
Di kala ku kesedihan,
kau ukirkan senyuman,
Dengan penuh sabar memujuk,

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh.

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh,
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku,
Andai hari esok dunia gelora,
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu.

Di kala aku tak pasti,
Kau tampil dengan berani,
Membimbing agar lebih yakin,
Dan bila hidup penuh soalan,
Kau berikan jawapan,
Melengkap semua kekurangan

Lalalala..:)

*many2 years back, now and hopefully always
AMEEN

2010-05-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

i'm actually not in a good mood..since the past few days..a feeling that i tried hard to blow away few years back seems to come again..sigh..keep on fighting..shhuuuuhhh..

life has taught me many ways to stay strong..so why should i be in this kind of state..no no i'll try..smile and cheer up..

see tonight i've added a remind-me-of-my-husband song to this blog :) i was actually searching for 'cinta tiada akhirnya' by jacklyn victor when i found this lovely beautiful song..and i just love it for the very first time i listen to the song..really do..feeling abg!

talking about abg aka darling husband..he turned 27 yesterday..and for the first time i able to wish him live with a birthday kiss haha ;) a memorable one..i wanted to buy him seluar keje at first but we could not find any of his size..and how tolerate my husband..he brought me to a store that offer a lower price..hehe..but too bad that none of the size could make him comfortable with..

so..i ended up with a simple magic (hihi we love this word)..online prepaid reload for my husband hehe..next time kita usha dockers keh ;)

see..i just managed to smile and laugh thank God..so can't wait this weekend..and i wish for another happy moments to come..insya Allah..

excited sekejap

2010-05-12T10:47:00.000+08:00

12 mei 2010..eh..dh 3 bulan aman & ani kawen..Alhamdulillah :) hari ni jgk saya terima satu surat dari HQ; PERMOHONAN PERTUKARAN TEMPAT BERTUGAS..sgt excited that i thought my permohonan dh lulus..rupenye pemberitahuan bhw permohonan saya dah diterima dan dlm proses..takpelah..sekurang-kurangnya ada respon di situ..:)

sekurang-kurangnya jgk saya mendapat satu nama yg saya boleh rujuk utk follow-up permohonan saya..sebelum ni saya hanya disambung ke sana ke mari melalui telefon..Cik Sinarsinari..very nice name kan? ;)

semoga ada sinar utk saya juga satu hari nnt..utk kami..

the caramel is sweeter than me!

2010-05-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

the last time i made caramel puding myself was awal 2000-an..(cane nk bace tuh?)..hihi..that was the time when i was still staying with my mom..so i got her help around..

and it's almost 10 years now that tonite i try to experiment the puding again..haha..i called mom this evening while 'browsing' the ingredients at mini market..just to refresh some steps and sukatan..hihi but i think i still need to adjust here and there..next time..

so now i'm waiting to see the end product..30minutes more maybe..and i can start smelling the sweetness..

oh can't wait..

"i cook something i like.." -anna olson

a.m.a.n.i

2010-05-03T13:39:00.000+08:00

Mia Sara Nasuha
and she's 4 years old

i juga nk dedicate this cute little face pd sesape saje yg tgh pregnant,
boleh? ;)

~walopon gamba dikutip dr page org len~

Yang Terindah

2010-04-15T11:18:00.000+08:00

Semenjak kau hadir dalam hidupku
Tiada lagi keresahan
Kau mengetuk pintu hatiku
Tanpa sedar hingga ku izinkan

Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah

Maaf jikaku tidak sempurna
Tika bahagia mula menjelma
Bila keyakinan datang merasa
Kasih disalut dengan kejujuran

Mencintai dirimu
Merindui dirimu
Memiliki dirimu
Hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu

Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah

Kau yang bernama cinta
Hingga aku rasa indah

OST Adamaya
by Dakmie

i see u everywhere now

2010-04-11T20:11:00.000+08:00

i stepped into the house
without you by my side

oh it's empty now
but still i see u everywhere
sitting next to me watching tv
sitting next to me surfing webs
sitting next to me enjoying meals

i see u everywhere
i wish that i can hug u now
because i just started crying
i wish i can call you now
but i don't want you to hear my sad voice

drive safe dear
till we meet again

i miss you so much

8.32pm
sunday april 11

*hubby usually drive back to KL on Monday morning after solat Subuh but due to a course that he needs to attend tomorrow, he has to drive back this late evening.

***

u just called me :)
1 hour and half to go
drive safe :)

9.40pm
sunday april 11

2010-04-08T11:25:00.001+08:00

belum. saya belum pregnant. entri ini sekadar utk berkongsi :)

saya semakin dpt merasakan betapa mendalamnya kasih seorang ibu terhadap anak. belum pun disahkan mengandung, seorang wanita yg mahu bergelar ibu sudah tertarik dgn pelbagai info berkenaan kehamilan, bayi dan anak. apatah lagi bila sudah disahkan berbadan dua nanti. segala pemakanan, tingkah laku, kata2, atau hampir apa saja tentu sekali mahu dijaga dgn baik dan diberi perhatian khusus. bukan utk diri sendiri, tapi utk anak yg dikandung. betulkan para ibu? :) saya cukup yakin, kasih sayang seawal dan sedalam inilah yg memberi kekuatan kpd para ibu utk terus melalui saat 9 bulan kehamilan dan seterusnya membesarkan anak, mendidik anak sehingga anak tersebut mampu memiliki dan melalui kehidupan sendiri, kehidupan berdikari.

saya belum pun seorang ibu, tapi sedikitnya saya mula memahami kasih seorang ibu. ini salah satu hikmah perkahwinan mungkin. kita diberi ruang utk terus meneroka kehidupan yg ditentukan Allah ini. sekurang-kurangnya kita mahu memahami dan mendalami bagaimana satu kehidupan itu boleh bermula dan bermula. indah. kagum. Allah Maha Bijaksana. Maha Agung.

terus berdoa.

p/s: kasih ayah tak kurang hebatnya.

life goes on!

2010-03-24T12:15:00.000+08:00

we might be hurt at anytime simply by something that we never expect and we never know on whom to put the blame. eventually we just have to realize that we ourselves are in the best position to protect ourselves from getting hurt by at least forgetting. well at least, but totally forgetting is hard. but every hardship is followed by ease, kan? life needs to move on. and for that reason, we need to fight.

see, understand and learn.

2010-03-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

silent mode

2010-03-18T09:15:00.000+08:00

i just want to fall in love
everyday

hey,
mari bercinta!

2010-03-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

kalau la saya bleh amik gamba ayam masak merah yg saya masak tadi..tapi sony ericson saya dh rosak..dan saya tak punya kamera..kalau x bleh upload kat sini..kasi bersemangat skit :) esok nk masak ape ye..something berkuah pulak maybe..hehe..i'll surf later :)

lately saya tak makan nasi for lunch..kebiasaan terbaru..saya hanya makan nasi lemak di waktu pagi..mamam kuih anytime i feel like kat office..skip my lunch and as the result sgt kelaparan di mlm hari..as the result jgk saya abiskan seperiuk nasi (seperiuk bersamaan 1 cup beras) seorg diri mlm ni ngn 3 kali tambah..makan pkul 9.30 mlm lak tuh..pekena milo ais lak tuh..hoho..tak leh amal nih..esok kena lunch..kasi balance..

anyway..i have something in my mind now..taste saya sebenarnya ala2 kanak2..xtahan pedas..suka yg manis2..very kontra ngn my hubby yg sgt suka pedas dan kurang manis..cane nk ejas tu?

hubby, i know you are reading..cane nk ejas mm? :)

oh cooking!

2010-03-04T10:50:00.000+08:00

cooking & I? we are not yet best friend. but i'm trying so that we can be :)

still remember that i was sooo in love with cooking back in 2001. i wanted to cook almost everything almost everyday. i surf recipes, i buy recipes collection, i read recipes column in almost all magazines, i myself even write a copy for my own from any source i found. and i cook. trust me! haha but that didn't last long. i tend to forget all the passion for cooking that i have in me once i furthered my studies at college and uni. and i give up. that's it, GIVE UP.

now i'm trying to tell myself to start new. i remember watching ratatouille and the famous tag line is 'anyone can cook'. yeah anyone can cook. adani can cook too. hehe. oh i just need to be passionate.

thankfully i have a supportive someone that he at least makes me want to cook. so this evening, i'm going to try nasi goreng serai with chicken black pepper for dinner. insya Allah. wish me luck!